好 我會問你一系列問題 Okay, I'm gonna ask you a series of questions,
不過這些問題沒有標準答案 and there are no right or wrong answers.
那麼關於未來 So when you think about the future,
你都有那些設想呢 how do you imagine it'll be?
比如 大自然會變成什麼樣 Like, what will nature be like?
你住的城市會發生什麼變化 How will your city change?
家庭成員會有什麼孌化 Will families be the same?
那些事會讓你久久銘記 那些會隨時間散落 What will stay with you, and what will you forget?
什麼事會讓你害怕 What scares you?
什麼事會讓你生氣 What makes you angry?
什麼事會讓你感到弧獨 Do you feel lonely?
什麼事會讓你覺得快樂 What makes you happy?
我們正在全國範圍周遊 So we are goin' around the country,
去不的城市裏採訪孩子們 goin' to different cities and interviewing kids,
各個年齡階層的都有 採訪他們對生活的看法 ranging in age, um, just about their... their life
以及他們對未來的構想 and what they think about the future.
如果我問的某個問題你不想回答 If I ask you anything that you don't wanna answer,
或者你不喜歡這個問題或任何原因 or you don't like a question or whatever,
直接「拒絕」就可以了 you can just be like, "No."
我希望你們能感到自在放鬆 I want you to just feel comfortable,
如果我問的問題裏 and if there's anything that I ask you about
有任何你不想討論的話題 that you don't wanna talk about,
只要說「我不太想談這個」就好 say "I don't really wanna talk about that."
我覺得成年人總是自視甚高 I think adults always think they're the boss,
要插手掌管所有事情 and they always gotta be the boss of everything.
我還覺得有些成年人思想太固執 And I think that some adults have that mindset
總是覺得「我是對的你是錯的」 where "I'm right and you're wrong."
關於未來 When you think about the future,
你都有那些設想呢 how do you imagine it'll be?
我... I...
我想同時也希望未來世界會很美好 I imagine and hope it'll be good.
那麼你有沒有思考過 And do you ever think,
比如 說成年人要做些什麼 like, what could adults have done
才確保我們在為美好的未來奠定基礎 to have made sure that we went in the right path?
那最重要的一定是 更加留心 Definitely most of all, paid more attention
就是說留心發生在身邊的事 to, like, what's going on around them,
因為我覺得這個問題現在很嚴重 'cause I feel like that's a big problem
處處都在發生 with, like, literally everything.
就是說 是很嚴重很嚴重的事 Like, that's a big, big thing.
他們會說「哦 你是底特律來的」 They'll be like, "Oh, you're from Detroit."
我會回答「是的」 I was like, "Yeah."
然後他們說「你那邊很危險的」 Like, "It's really dangerous there.
「學校也都很爛」 "The schools are really terrible
「底特律真是一無是處」 "and, like, nothing's good there."
我就回答「你很瞭解嗎」 I was like, "Well, how would you know?
「你又不住在那裏」 "You don't live there,"
「也沒上過那邊的學校」 "and you don't go to school there."
「你又不是底特律長太的」 "You weren't raised in Detroit."
「而我可是在底特律出生長大的」 "Like, I've been raised in Detroit all my life."
美國 呃 真的是 America, uh, it's so much...
充滿了悲劇 It's so much tragedy,
有人遭受著不公 and some people aren't treated fairly,
遭受著種族歧視 性取向歧視 because of race, because of who they like,
出生地歧視 because of where they live,
還會因為貧窮被歧視 because of how much money they have.
所以我希望未來能變得美好一點 So I would want it to become a better place
也希望大家能夠明白 and people to know
就算一些人和你很不一樣 that just because someone isn't like you
也不代表這種不同是不該存在的 doesn't mean that they're wrong,
但是其實我也不確定啊 but then I'm not sure.
我們現在所處的時間點 We're at the point right now
正是要做出改變的節點 where we have to change things,
而基於我們人類的道德良知來看 and just based on our morals as people,
我真的不覺得這種改變會很快到來 I don't really see that happening anytime soon.
所以你...你對未來有信心嗎 So, you're... You're hopeful for the future?
就是說 當你暢想未來世界的時候 Like, when you think about the future,
你覺得未來會更美好 還是更糟糕呢 you think it'll be better or worse?
就我個人而言 For me, personally,
我覺得世界會孌得更好的 I feel like things are gonna get better,
因為我現在有很多機會 because I have a lot of opportunities right now.
我對自己很有信心 I'm hopeful for myself,
對別人也是 for other people.
我不知道未來能不能變好 I don't know if things are gonna get better,
真的很難說 it's really on the side,
但是我真的希望一切都有好結果 but I really hope things get better.
嗯 從世界整體而言 Um, but for the overall world,
我也是希望未來會更好 once again I hope it gets better,
但是可能 不是所有事都能變好 but it might not, like everything.
如果你能擁有一種超能力 If you could have one superpower,
你希望獲得那一種 what would it be?
這個問題很難回答 That's a hard question.
嗯 這一個問題 Um, that's one of the popular questions
我經常會問大家 that I ask people.
有的人說... Some people say...
底特律曾是世界的未來 Detroit was the future.
所以我們來到... So we came to...
我們來到底特律 和當地的年輕人和孩子們交流 We came to Detroit to talk to young people, kids.
我們在底特律和孩子們年輕人們交流 You know, we came to Detroit to talk to kids, young people,
問他們 and to ask them
他們對自己的未來生活有什麼設想 what they thought their lives would be like,
生活會如何變化 how it's changing for them,
他們會受到什麼啟發會期待怎樣的變化 what are they inspired by and excited by,
以及他們現在的生活如何 and what are their lives like now?
嘿 Hey.
- 嗨 - 嗨 - Hi. - Hi.
真好 你打電話給我 It's nice that you called.
我也不知道要不要給打電話你 I didn't know if I was gonna call
或者也許你會打 or if you would...
也許我們都不會打 If no one would...
今天很適合聊天 It's a good day to talk.
也許媽媽也在天上聽著呢 Maybe Mom's listening.
是啊 也許吧 Yeah, maybe.
我都沒感覺到這事兒已經一年了 It doesn't feel like it's been a year to me.
你覺得呢 Does it to you?
我也是 很奇怪 No, it's weird.
我今天都不知道自己應該做什麼 I didn't know what to do with myself today.
嗯 我明白 我只要一工作 Yeah, I know. If I just, um, work,
就覺得自己沒有在好好哀悼 then I feel like I'm not mourning
沒有給予足夠的重視之類的 in the right way or whatever.
但如果我就這麼坐在死氣沉沉的酒店房間裏 And if I sit in this depressing hotel room
一直想著媽媽 and just think about Mom,
這種悲痛又太讓人難以承受 then, yeah, it's just pretty brutal.
所以 我就打給你了 So, yeah, I called you.
你在那裏 Where are you?
嗯 我在底特律 Um, I'm in Detroit.
我在採訪孩子們 I've been, um, interviewing kids.
這個工作很棒 Uh, so that was cool.
- 很棒 - 是的 - Cool. - Yeah.
傑西有一天在收音機上聽到你了 Jesse heard you on the radio the other day.
哦 是嗎 Oh, yeah?
對 我們當時正在開車 Yeah, we were driving,
然後你的聲音照常出現在收音機裏 and there you were on the radio as usual,
我還得告訴他那聲音就是你 and I had to tell him it was you.
- 真的嗎 - 他才九歲你知道嗎 - Really? - He's nine, you know?
他聽不出你的聲音 He didn't recognize your voice,
這才過去一年 it's been a year.
一年對孩子來說是很漫長的 It's a long time for a kid.
哇噢 Wow.
好吧 All right.
嗯 Yeah.
傑西還好嗎 How's Jesse?
嗯他很好 Uh, he's so good.
他很聰明 但是也很古怪 He's smart, and he's so weird.
長大了 變有趣了 怎麼說呢 他... He's older, and he's funny, and I don't know, he's...
他...他已經是個小大人了 He's... he's a whole little person.
嗯 然後保羅搬到奧克蘭去了 Um, and Paul moved to Oakland.
是嗎 He did?
對 Yeah.
哇 真的嗎 Whoa, really?
是的 沒什麼的 Yeah, it's okay.
我...是這樣...我是這樣想的 I... It's... I think so.
傑西目前為止應對得還不錯 Jesse is dealing with it well so far,
但是保羅不太行 but Paul's not.
- 他... - 嗯 - He is... - Hmm.
我是說 他... 我只是 I mean, he... I'm just...
他沒事的 He's fine.
我只是得過去幫點忙 I just have to go up and help a little.
幫他安頓住所 Help him settle in.
哦 是嗎 Oh, yeah?
對 Yeah.
我很快就要去了 沒什麼大問題 So I'm heading up there soon, but we're good.
所以你要帶...你要帶傑西一起去嗎 So you taking... You taking Jesse?
不帶 No.
不帶 這不是那種輕鬆的出門遊 No, I don't think it's that kind of trip.
那傑西誰來照看呢 So who's watching Jesse?
我還沒安排 I haven't gotten there yet.
洛 杉 磯
- 嗨 - 嗨 - Hi. - Hi.
嗨 Hi.
嘿 Hey.
- 打個招呼 - 嗨 - Say hi. - hi.
「嗨 你好嗎」 "Hi, how are you?"
你好嗎 How are you?
很好 你呢 I'm good. How are you?
我也很好 I'm good.
想不想請約翰尼叔叔進來坐坐呀 Wanna ask Uncle Johnny to come in?
你應該間問我想不想進屋坐坐 You should ask me if I wanna come in.
你想進屋坐坐嗎 Do you wanna come in?
- 謝謝你 - 沒事 - Thank you. - Okay.
抱抱我可以嗎 I get a hug?
- 嗨 - 嗨 - Hi. - Hi.
這個是 嗯 她的裙子 We have, um, her dresses
這些都是我的作業 um, all my homework stuff.
嗯 真不錯 Hmm, cool.
媽媽說你今晚要睡樓上 Mom says you're gonna sleep up here tonight
躺在那張超級大 超級舒服 全家最好的床上 in her extra-big, cozy bed, best bed in the house.
有那些 超級 超級 超級大 So there are these, um, big, big, big, big,
超級大的 嗯 真菌管 big, um, little like fungus tubes
或者真菌形成的管子 or tubes that are fungus,
把所有的樹都連在了一起 and they're connecting all the trees.
- 就在上面 - 嗯 嗯 - so they're up here. - Mm-hmm.
它們長得很高很高 And they'd be really tall.
帶著所有的食物 然後你就可以 They get all the food, and then you kinda,
通過管子從一棵樹去另一棵樹 like, go through the tubes into another tree.
然後 嗯 他們... And then, um, well, they...
他們就 帶上所有的食物 They would, like, get all the food
然後穿過管子 and then it'll go through.
所以這些樹就需要 And so the tree needs...
所以保羅過得怎麼樣 他在忙什麼 So what's goin' on with Paul? How's he doin'?
我不知道 Oh, I don't know.
我是說他收到了舊金山交響樂的 I mean, he was offered this, you know, incredible position
非常好的入職邀請 at the San Francisco Symphony,
他的能力也完全配得上 which he totally deserves,
但是搬家的事把他搞沒轍了 but the transition fucked him up.
- 嗯哼 - 搬家都是這樣的 - Mm-hmm. - Like transitions always do.
然後...他還他媽有條狗 And... And then he got a fucking dog,
根本就不該養的 所以... which he should not have gotten, so...
- 不會吧 - 所以 沒錯 就是... - No. No. - So, yeah. It's just...
就是...就是...就是老樣子 亂成一團 It's... It's... It's a total mess as usual.
你得過去給他打掃乾淨嗎 And you have to clean it up?
是的 Yeah.
對保羅就這樣 Yeah, that's Paul.
傑西呢 他知道些什麼 What about Jesse? What does he know?
他什麼也不知道 我只說我過去幫他收拾下 Nothing. I said I was gonna help him get organized,
所以我們以後會一起去的 so we'll go together later.
他跟我單獨在一起沒問題吧 He gonna be okay just with me?
就是說... Like, what...
他最喜歡我不在家了 He loves it when I'm not around.
這樣他才能放肆玩 He'll have so much fun.
是嗎 Yeah?
你回來了真好 It's really good to see you.
有人嗎 Hello?
有人在家嗎 Is anyone home?
- 有人嗎 - 呃 你準備好帶孩子了嗎 - Hello? - Uh, are you ready for this?
天啊 什麼事 God, what?
- 有人嗎 - 做好心理準備吧 - Hello? - Brace yourself.
他喜歡扮個小孤兒 There's this, uh, little orphan
很喜歡來看望我 who likes to come visit me.
事實上 他可能要來看望你了 In fact, he will probably come visit you,
他喜歡假裝我有過一些早夭的孩子 and he likes to pretend that, uh, I have some dead children,
然後他會狂問我 他們都做過些什麼 and he asks me a lot of questions about what they did,
然後他就會去做一樣的事 so he can do those same things.
- 這也太離譜了 - 沒錯 - That's fucked up. - Yeah.
真的是...超級正常的行為 It's really... It's totally normal.
所有孩子都這樣 All the kids do this.
有人在家嗎 Is anyone home?
我來了 I'm coming.
- 嗨 - 嗨 - Hi. - Hi.
是為了孤兒的事嗎 Is this the orphan?
嗯 Mm-hmm.
我今晚能睡在這裏嗎 Can I sleep here tonight?
孤兒院只有雙層床 They only have bunk beds at the orphanage
但是那些孩子睡覺都會打呼嚕 and all the kids snore.
嗯 你當然可以留宿 Hmm, of course you can.
呃 其實我兒子今晚不在家 所以... Uh, actually, my son's not here tonight, so...
如果你願意的話我可以代替他 I could take his place if you want.
這個主意不錯 That's a good idea.
他一般都是這個點就睡了 He usually goes to bed right now.
走這邊 我正好有個房間 You know, this way, I happen to have a room
有張適合你大小的床 with a bed just your size.
你想去看一眼嗎 You wanna check it out?
「桃樂茜住在堪薩斯的大草原上」 "Dorothy lived in the midst of the great Kansas prairies"
「和她的農夫叔叔亨利」 "with Uncle Henry, who was a farmer,
「以及農夫的妻子嬸嬸住在一起」 "and Aunt Em, who was the farmer's wife."
她擁抱了我 她有點不太一樣 She hugged me, and she felt different,
或者是我不太一樣 or I felt different,
傑西可能對我還隱約有點印象 and, yeah, Jesse maybe vaguely remembered me.
也許有 也許沒有了 Maybe. Maybe not.
Da, da. Da, da, da, da.
他和我說了樹是如何相互交流的 He told me about trees communicating with each other
還講了樹之間的聯繫很緊密 and how connected they were
通過地底的真菌脈絡相連接 by an underground network of fungus.
愛你 愛你 愛你 愛你 愛你 Love you, love you, love you, love you, love you.
嗯 Mmm.
愛你 愛你 愛你 Love you, love you, love you.
看上去很不錯 On you look good
噢 舒服了 好了 繼續睡覺吧 Oh, cozy. Okay, go back to sleep.
早上好 Good morning.
太響了 It's loud!
今天是週六 It's Saturday.
我週六就是會很吵 I get to be loud on Saturdays.
- 你媽剛走了嗎 - 嗯 哼 - Mom just left? - Uh-huh.
她說你可能會有點無所適從 She said you might be a bit awkward.
什麼 What?
她說你可能會有點無所適從 She said you might be a bit awkward.
但是你會習慣的 But you'll get used to things.
你能不能把聲音關小點 Will you turn it down a little?
她在廚房給你留了些紙條 She left you some notes in the kitchen.
這是話筒嗎 Is that a microphone
還是...還是和耳機一體的 or is it a... in the headphones?
什麼 Huh?
你的...你的話筒是和耳機一體的嗎... Is it... Is the mic in the headphones and...
還是說這個就是話筒 Or is that the mic?
這個就是話筒 This is the mic,
我先調一下音量 and I'm just gonna get a quick little level.
小點 Careful.
Da, da, da, da, da, da, da.
對於未來 So when you think about the future,
你有那些設想 what do you imagine?
嗯 我不想...我不願意想 Um, I don't wan... I don't wanna.
你不願意想像一下未來嗎 You don't wanna imagine what the future's like?
我不想回答問題 I don't wanna do the questions.
- 好吧 - 哦 這是什麼 - Uh-uh. - Oh, what's that?
- 嗯... - 這裏有螺絲釘 - Um... - There's a screw there,
還有很多按鈕 and there's loads of little buttons.
嗯那個是...增強鍵 Well, that's the... That's the gain.
增強鍵 The gain?
嗯 這樣你才能知道... Well, it's how you know how much...
來 把耳機戴上 Here, put these on.
可以聽到一些聲音 You can hear something.
看到了嗎 Do you see this?
來 Here.
- 能聽見嗎 - 我可以... - Can you hear that? - I can...
- 沒錯 - 聽見 - Yes. - hear that.
嗯 所以這個旋鈕就是用來調整輸入音量的 Yeah. So this is what you adjust for an input volume.
現在超級安靜 Now it's super quiet.
然後把它旋到最大 So turn it all the way up,
你就能感受到了 you can feel that.
好玩嗎 Having fun?
這裏面的聲音聽上去都好奇妙 It all sounds amazing in here.
我爸爸一定會喜歡的 My dad would love this.
約翰尼 Johnny!
怎麼了嗎 You need something?
我媽媽會給我講故事 My mom tells me stories.
虛構或者真的都可以 It can be fiction or non-fiction.
小朋友 我不知道有什麼故事可以講 Oh, boy, I don't know any stories.
嗯... Um...
我們能不能就聊聊天 相互瞭解一下 Can we just talk and get to know each other?
她為什麼忽然就不再聯繫你了 Why did she stop talkin' to you?
嗯 我們有聯繫呀 Um, we talk.
你們沒有 No, you don't.
嗯 我也不知道 I mean, I don't know.
你們以前是不是會有很多話說 Did you used to talk a lot?
是的 Yeah.
約翰尼 你去那裏了 Johnny, where have you been?
- 嗨 - 過來幫我個忙 - Hi. - You can help me.
好的 需要我做什麼 Yeah, what do you need?
他要來接我了 He's coming to get me.
誰要來了 Who's coming?
我得穿戴整齊一點 I have to get dressed.
爸爸要帶我去機動車輛管理局 My dad's taking me to the DMV.
我的毛衣在那邊 My sweater was over there.
扶我起來 Help me up.
我今天要去領駕照 I'm gonna get my license.
我不懂你為什麼要縱容 I don't know why you give in
這種妄想癥 to those delusions like that.
你認真的嗎 Are you serious?
是啊 我認真的 Yeah, I'm serious.
你他媽認真的嗎 Are you fucking serious?
放鬆 我扶著你呢 Easy, I got you.
快點 Hurry.
我為什麼不能順從一點哄她高興 Why wouldn't I entertain it?
讓她做想做的事吧 你為什麼 Just let her have that. Why you...
什麼事情 What's going on?
我爸爸要來接我了 My dad's coming to get me.
媽媽 你要不 嗯... Mom, why don't you, um...
不如我們躺下等你爸爸來吧 Why don't we wait for your dad lying down?
你就是要縱容她 You just give in to her!
你總是要縱容她 You always just give in to her!
- 這種事正是... - 不管她的想法有多荒唐 - This is precisely... - Whatever she wants!
應該順從她 讓她去做的 what you should give in to.
- 你到底在說什麼 - 那都不是她了 - What are you talking about? - It's not her, though.
那都己經不是她了... It's not even her...
你到底什麼毛病 What is your problem?
你想知道我為什麼反對嗎 You know what my problem is?
- 你說啊 - 就是因為 - Yeah, yeah. - It's that
這麼多年來 我是我們中唯一一個 for our entire lives, I am the only one
站出來對抗他們的 whoever challenged them.
真的嗎 這麼多年來只有你 Really? Really? For our entire lives?
是啊 就是這樣 Yes. Yes, really.
你的生活真是輕鬆 So easy for you.
他們反反覆覆地讓我覺得自己是個瘋子 They made me feel like I was a crazy person again and again,
而你對此無動於衷 and you just went along with it.
但你根本不給別人幫助你的機會 You don't exactly make it easy to help you.
也許吧 但是我確實需要你的幫助 Well, maybe, but I needed your help.
聽著 你現在失去的是一個愛你的母親 Look, you're losing a mom who adored you.
她真的愛你 She just did.
而我失去的只是一個從來無法理解我的人 And I'm losing one who never understood me.
好了 媽媽 Okay, Mom.
「你能這樣穿很好 博克說道」 "'It is kind of you to wear that,' said Boq."
「藍色是地精們穿的顏色」 "'Blue is the color of the Munchkins,"
「白色是巫婆穿的顏色」 "'and white is the witch color."
「這樣我們就能知道你是個友善的巫婆了」 "'So we know you are a friendly witch.'"
「桃樂茜不知道該說什麼」 "Dorothy didn't know what to say."
「桃樂茜不知道該如何回應」 "Dorothy did not know what to say to this,"
「因為似乎所有的人都覺得她是個巫婆」 "for all the people seemed to think her a witch,"
-「而她也...」 - 你為什麼沒有結婚 - "and she knew..." - Why aren't you married?
嗯 我和一個人 Um, I was with...
我以前和一個人相處了很久她叫路易莎 I was with somebody for a long time, Louisa.
「而她也很清楚」 "And she knew very well"
「自己只是個普通的小女孩」 "she was only an ordinary little girl"
「陰差陽錯地因為一場龍捲風」 "who had come by the chance of a cyclone"
-「才了這片奇怪的地方」 - 你愛過她嗎 - "into a strange land." - Did you love her?
我現在依然愛著她 I still do.
那你們為什麼要分手呢 Then why did you break up?
我不知道 I don't know.
嗯...「她看舞蹈看厭煩了以後」 Um... "When she had tired watching the dancing,"
「博克...博克領她進了屋」 "Boq... Boq led her into the house,"
「帶她走進了放著一張漂亮小床的房間」 "where he gave her a room with a pretty bed in it."
不是我提出的分手 I don't think it was my choice.
嗯 我覺得 Mm, I think, um,
你們互相愛著 you love each other,
到現在依然互相愛著對方 and then you still love each other,
但卻很難再把這種愛意表達給對方 but find it hard to express that love to each other,
於是只能互相看著 and so then you look at each other,
然後就這樣了 and you do this.
然後你意識到「哦」 And you go, "Oh."
你...你知道吧 我是說 You... You know, I mean,
我希望你不會經歷這種事 I hope you don't have the experience,
但是你以後大概也會經歷的 but you probably will.
其實還好了 It's all right, actually.
嗯 「那個...」 Um, "The sh..."
「漂亮的小床」 "Pretty bed in it."
「床單由藍色的布料製成」 "The sheets were made of blue cloth,"
「桃樂茜美美地睡了一覺...」 "and Dorothy slept soundly..."
好了 晚安 Okay, good night.
嗯 所以如果 Um, so what happened...
給他讀了 《綠野仙蹤》 Read him The Wizard of Oz,
親了他的額頭 kissed him on the head,
說了晚安 and said good night,
然後他問我 為什麼我不結婚 and he asked me why am I not married.
我沒告訴他 其實我想結婚 I didn't tell him that I wanna be,
我很想念路易莎 that I miss Louisa.
這些話到嘴邊就變成了玩笑話 I made it into a weird joke.
我為什麼要這樣做 Why'd I do that?
不久以前 Not so long ago,
在遙遠的北極村莊 in an Arctic village far away,
住著一家北極熊 there lived a polar bear family.
有北極熊爸爸 北極熊媽媽 There was a papa polar bear, a mama polar bear,
還有北極熊寶寶 and a baby polar bear,
他們都深深愛著彼此 and they all loved each other very much,
但是家裏有些不尋常的事 but something was not quite right.
熊寶寶知道家裏不對勁 Baby bear knew something was wrong.
但他從來不說 只是一直在擔心 He never said a word, but he worried all the time.
他擔心著他的爸爸 He worried about his papa.
因為 熊爸爸總是很難 You see, Papa Bear had a hard time
控制自己的情緒 controlling his feelings
有時候他做的事讓寶寶和媽媽 and sometimes he did things that upset,
感到難過 有時候甚至會嚇到他們 and even scared Mama and Baby Bear.
所以要麼警官是在下毒 很糟糕 整個行動 so either officer was posioning, and it's bad, this whole work strategy
所以我應該管你叫「老爹」 So should I call you like "Papa"
還是「爸爸」還是「約翰尼」 or "Dad" or just "Johnny"?
你就怎麼順口怎麼來吧 You can call me whatever feels comfortable to you.
呃 我...我不知道 Uh, I... I don't know,
因為我一般沒有可以選擇的機會 it's just I'm not used to being able to choose.
也許我們可以慢慢來 Maybe we can just take this process slowly
然後...然後你體會一下自己的感受 and... And see... See how it feels.
嗯 好的 Mm-hmm, yeah.
我真的很抱歉你的孩子都過世了 And I'm just really sorry that your children died.
這一部分我沒法配合你演 Um, you know, I don't think I can do that part.
我...我和你說過我和媽媽就是這樣演的 Yeah, I... I told you that's how me and Mom do it.
如果 ...你媽媽覺得這樣很合理 If it's... makes sense for your mom to do that,
也挺好 但是我覺得這種事不合理 that's cool, but it doesn't make sense for me
這也是我想對你解釋的 and that's what I was explaining to you.
為什麼你會覺得不合理呢 這就是... Why it doesn't make sense for you? It's...
因為這種假設很可笑 Because it's ridiculous.
- 是不是... -很悲傷 - Is it... - It's sad.
問題在於你為什麼會想這樣扮演 The question is why do you wanna do it.
你真的很不擅長演戲 You are just terrible at this.
天啊 我在努力啊 Oh, man, I'm tryin'.
讓我...我問你一個問題 Let... Let me ask you a question.
為什麼你做的事都要像這樣 Why does everything have to be like this kind of weird,
- 古怪又詭異 - 因為我喜歡 - eccentric thing that you do? - 'Cause I like it.
沒錯 但是為什麼不能做點 Yeah, but why not just
- 正常的事 - 怎麼樣算正常 - do something normal? - What's normal?
比如說你的真實生活裏發生的 Like everything in your real life...
怎麼樣算正常 What's normal?
好吧 行吧 有道理 Okay, fine. Good point.
我唯一擁有的 The only thing that I do have
就是我知道自己在說什麼 is that I know what I'm saying.
我家裏的家人關心我 I'm in a home where people care about me
（嗨 能和你談談嗎） 我家裏的家人關心我 I'm in a home where people care about me
（嗨 能和你談談嗎） 我的朋友也關心我 而且... and I have friends that care about me and...
(單獨談談)
奧 克 蘭
這就是完全的隨機性 That's the total randomness.
比如這裏什麼都沒有 Like there was nothing.
這裏有個三角形 It was like a triangle one on this one
這裏有個正方形 and a square on this one,
然後這半塊是三角形的 and half of the block would be a triangle,
另一半是一個單詞 and the other half would be a word,
然後他們問我「你能解出來嗎」 and they'll be like, "Can you figure it out?"
那個看上去和這塊地板很像 It looked very similar to this floor here.
嗨 Hi.
嘿 發生了什麼嗎... Hey, what's... what's going on?
哦 情況太糟了 Oh, it's really bad.
他真的需要幫助 He really needs to go somewhere for help
但是他不讓我...不讓我幫他 and he's not letting me, uh, get him there.
我睡覺上班 I'm sleeping, I'm going to work,
- 我有... - 你睡過覺嗎 - I have... - Are you sleeping?
我當然睡覺了 I am sleeping!
你一般睡多久 How many hours do you usually...
這很重要嗎 Does that matter?
我有睡覺 我有睡覺的 I'm sleeping, I'm sleeping!
他整個人都他媽的太偏執了 You know, he's totally fucking paranoid.
我稍微一提起來... Just the second I bring it up...
你知道吧 我只是想往包裹裝點東西 Yeah, you know, I just tried to put some things in a bag
然後他整個人就失控抓狂 and he totally fucking lost his mind.
你把這些衣服全拿走了 And you took all these clothes
我要去那裏住一兩個月 if I'm gonna be there for a month or two months
- 反正很久 - 沒有 沒有 我們不用 - or whatever. - No, no, no, we don't...
我們不用住這麼久 不要這樣 We don't have to. No, no, no.
因為我想把我的東西全帶過去 Because I want all my things there.
我知道我能讓他自己辦理登記入住 I know that I can get him to check himself in,
但是我就是...我要適當停下來 but I've just... I've gotta lay off
慢慢引導 and just slow down.
所以你能不能幫我 So can you stay with Jesse for me
再照看傑西幾天 for another couple of days?
我給傑西學校打過電話 把你的名字給他們了 I called Jesse's school and put you on the list,
你可以...你就可以接送他上學了 and you can... You can just bring him to school and pick him up.
這樣可以嗎 Can you do that?
可以的 Yeah, I can.
嗯... Um...
哦 謝謝你 Oh, thank you.
但是 小芙 你知道嗎 But, uh, Viv, you know,
我本來週五要回紐約去做採訪的 I'm supposed to do these, um, interviews on Friday back in New York
嗯 但我再想想辦法吧 um, but I'll figure it out.
你可以嗎 不會...不會太勉強吧 You will? You can... You can do that?
嗯 沒事 我會想到辦法的 Yeah, don't... I'll figure somethin' out.
好的 Okay.
謝謝你 Thank you.
聽著 別跟他提一個字 好嗎 And listen, you just don't say anything to him, okay?
嗯 好的 Yeah, okay.
我們第一場採訪 I think our first one
應該是週六的九點 你到時候能回來嗎 is maybe 9:00 on Saturday. Will you be back for that?
嗯 絕對可以 Yeah, definitely.
好 Cool.
你的意思是你能在這個時間前回來 Is that something where I'll see you before that
還是說需要我把採訪前筆記發給你 or should I send you the pre-interview notes
費恩南多把飛機給我們了 Fernando gave us for like the plane?
嗯...對 我到時候會過去的 Um... Yeah, I'll be there,
但是 嗯 還是發給我吧 but, um, yeah, just send it,
好讓我拿到先看一下 just... just so I have it and I'll look at it,
但是 我應該會在週五 but, no, I'll be in, um, Friday.
呃 其實我也不知道 我還沒買票呢 Well, I don't know, I haven't figured out a ticket yet,
- 但是 嗯... - 好的 - but, um... - Okay.
我會想到辦法的 I'll figure somethin' out.
你那邊...小芙和其他事還順利嗎 And how's... How's like Vivs and stuff?
很好 Good.
- 是嗎 - 是的很好 - Yeah? - Good. Yeah.
是的 我是說 嗯 Yeah, it's, um, I mean, you know,
我們正在鍛煉呢 we're just working out,
不過 嗯 這個孩子特別棒 but, um, this kid is fucking great.
是嗎 Yeah?
他戴上了耳機 拿著話筒 而且 嗯... He's got the gear on and he's, uh...
你把錄音設備拿給他看了嗎 Oh, have you been showing him like audio recording stuff?
你有沒有去過紐約 Have you been to New York?
沒有 No.
從來都沒去過紐約嗎 Never been to New York?
從來沒去過紐約 Never ever been to New York.
你不覺得這些陽光沙灘 You don't think all the, like, sunshine and sand,
還有這些人 有點無聊嗎 and bodies is kinda boring?
不覺得 No.
噢 我的天 Oh, man.
你知道嗎 你應該跟我去紐約 You know, you should come with me.
什麼 What?
沒錯 跟我一起去紐約吧 Yeah, come with me to New York.
你是說...現在就走嗎 Like... Like, right now?
不是現在就走 不過也很快 Well, not right now, but, yeah,
我這週末有 I have to go this weekend
採訪的工作要做 你可以給我幫忙 to do interviews and stuff, and you can help me.
你懂的 錄音 You know, record sound
然後也許我可以 and maybe I can,
把這些放進節目裏 like, weave that into the show.
我很樂意 I think it'd be fun.
我想去 I'd love that.
我回來了 Hi!
過來 Come here.
保羅 Paul?
呃 所以保羅不見了 Uh, so Paul is gone.
保羅 Paul?
呃 他不接電話 Uh, he doesn't answer his phone,
我不知道他去那了 I don't know where he went.
呃 他真的想讓你幫他嗎 Uh, does he even want help?
我感覺他只是... I feel like he just...
他只是想讓你回到他身邊 照顧他 He just wants you back taking care of him.
哦 天啊 拜託 不要...不要和我提這個 Oh, God. Oh, please, don't... Don't start.
我現在沒法和你理論 I can't do this with you right now.
你先聽我說一下 我知道你壓力很大 Just hear me out for a second. I know you're stressed out,
但先聽我說一下 but just hear me out for a second.
你覺得我把傑西帶去紐約怎麼樣 What if Jesse came with me to New York?
他說他想去 我覺得 嗯 He said that he wanted to and I think that, um...
他說他想去是什麼意思 What do mean, he said he wanted to?
你已經問過他了嗎 You already asked him?
沒有 我們只是聊到了紐約... No, we talked about New York...
天啊 你已經問過他了 Oh, God, you already asked him.
他說他從來沒去過紐約 And he said he'd never been there.
冷靜點 Calm down.
約翰尼 你怎麼能不徵求母親的意見 Johnny, you don't ask a nine-year-old kid
先跑去問九歲的小孩他想不想去紐約啊 if they want go to New York before you ask their mother!
小芙 我是想幫忙 我想幫你 Viv, I wanna help, I wanna help.
- 上帝啊 - 聽我說 - Jesus Christ! - Listen to me.
我想給你幫忙 這就是我提供幫助的方式 I'm tryin' to help you and this is a way that I can help.
那你真是幫了倒忙 Well, that's not helpful.
呃... Uh...
那我再給別人打打電話吧 I'll call somebody else.
我來想辦法 I'll figure it out.
我靠在牆上 And I sat on the wall
等他放學出來 waiting for him to come out of school,
然後我聽到全校的孩子都放學跑了出來 and then I heard all the kids coming out of school,
小跑著下樓 大聲說著話 running down the steps, talking loud,
然後他出來了 and then he came down.
然後 他細細的聲音 And then, this stupid little voice
跟著他可愛的小臉和頭髮冒出來 with this cute little fucking hair and face,
他說「你和媽媽說過了嗎」 he was like, "Did you talk to Mom?"
我說「說過了」 I said, "Yeah."
「她怎麼回復你的」 "Well, what did she say?"
「她說她很愛你」 "She loves you very much."
因為我沒法告訴他真話 'Cause I couldn't tell him.
嘿 Hey.
聽著 你能不能在紐約找到人 So listen, can you find somebody in New York
可以在你工作的時候照看他 to watch him when you're working?
這個你有辦法實現嗎 Is that a realistic plan that you could make happen?
可以的 Yes.
- 真的嗎 - 可以的 - Yeah? - Yes.
那你的人選是誰 Who would that person be?
我會找一個人出來的 I'll find someone.
我會找到的 我保證 I'll figure it out, I promise.
好吧 好的 Okay. Okay.
我給傑西的老師打了電話 I called Jesse's teacher,
解釋說家裏有緊急情況 and said there's a family emergency,
我要出門一周 and I'll be out for about a week.
我把他的作業發給你 I'll send you his assignments.
別擔心 Don't worry.
好 好 Okay, okay.
- 好的 - 好吧 - Okay. - Okay.
「在我們的文化裏」 "Motherhood is the place in our culture"
「我們將自身的衝突」 "where we lodge, or rather bury,"
「以及作為一個完整人類的意義」 "the reality of our own conflicts,"
「寄托給 甚至理所當然地歸責給母親對我們的培育」 "of what it means to be fully human."
「母親的培育成了我們個人和政治失敗的替罪羊」 "It is the ultimate scapegoat for our personal and political failings"
「成了為世界上一切錯誤負責的替罪羊」 "for everything that is wrong with the world,"
「於是這些問題顯然就成了不切實際的任務」 "which it becomes the task, unrealizable of course,"
「要由母親來修復」 "of mothers to repair."
「我們這樣對待母親 本質上就是在期待」 "What are we doin' to mothers when we expect them"
「在我們想不透社會和自身出現的難題時」 "to carry the burden of everything"
「就讓母親來承擔解決一切的責任」 "that is hardest to contemplate about our society and ourselves"
「母親們沒有退路 只能被迫」 "Mothers cannot help, but be in touch"
「面對人性中最難以相處的一面」 "with the most difficult aspects of any fully-lived life."
「到底為什麼要由她們來承受一切」 "Why on earth should it fall to them"
「獨自擔起粉刷世界 消滅邪惡和危險的責任」 "to paint things bright, and innocent, and safe."
這首歌會讓你們搖滾到死 It's gonna rock you dead,
腦漿沸騰 你們準備好了嗎 come upside your head. You get ready?
你們說 開始 耶 好 來 You said, here we go. Yay, all right, come on.
一起來 一起來 Come on. Come on, let's go.
耶 Yeah.
好了 所有人 準備好舞起來 All right, everybody, get down on your basement.
準備好 沒錯 來吧 Get ready, yeah, okay.
♪ Hey, put your hands up ♪
紐 約 市 ♪ Upside your knees ♪
紐 約 市 - ♪ Now do the ostrich ♪ - ♪ Do the ostrich ♪
♪ Yeah, yeah, yeah ♪
♪ Do the ostrich ♪
♪ Hey, take this forward and step on your head ♪
♪ And do the ostrich ♪
- ♪ Do the ostrich ♪ - ♪ All right ♪
♪ Do the ostrich ♪
♪ Here, we go, oh, whoa! ♪
- ♪ Whoa ♪ - ♪ Whoa ♪
- ♪ All right ♪
♪ Do the ostrich ♪
♪ You take a step forward then you turn to the right ♪
- ♪ And do the ostrich ♪ - ♪ Do the ostrich ♪
♪ Oh, oh, whoa, whoa, yeah, yeah ♪
♪ Do the ostrich ♪
♪ You turn to left ♪
♪ And then you feet upside your left ♪
- ♪ And do the ostrich ♪ - ♪ Do the ostrich
- ♪ Oh, oh, oh, oh ♪ - ♪ Do the ostrich
♪ Now, you go, whoa... ♪
好長的橋 It's so long.
你喜歡這裏嗎 Do you like it here?
什麼 What?
你喜歡紐約嗎 Do you like it here in New York?
喜歡 Yeah.
你更喜歡那個 What do you like better?
在這裏錄音 還是在沙灘上錄音 Recording here or at the beach?
這裏 Here.
但我更喜歡...我喜歡滑滑板的人 But I like the... I like the skaters.
你喜歡玩滑板的人 You like the skaters?
是的 Yeah.
你知道我為什麼喜歡錄音嗎 Yeah, you know, what I love about recording?
我為什麼會這麼喜歡錄音 What I love about recording?
你能聽到我說話嗎 You can hear me?
- 可以 - 哦 算了 我真是太... - Yep. - Oh, whatever, I'm so...
- 說呀 說呀 說呀 - 不說 不說 - No, no, no, no! - No, no.
- 不是的 就是... - 哦 好吧 好吧 - No, just... - Oh, okay, okay.
這樣很酷 And in a way it's cool,
因為你可以保存這些聲音 對吧 because you get to keep these sounds, right?
可以永遠保存這些聲音 You keep it forever.
你把塵世間的聲音錄下來 You make like this mundane thing,
卻能讓它變成永恆 就很酷很有趣 like be immortal, and that's cool and fun.
(你兒子說 比起洛杉磯他更喜歡紐約)
(小叛徒)
(真希望我能看看他在那的樣子)
- 看這邊 - 嘿 - Look here. - Hey.
- 嘿 - 你好嗎 朋友 - Hey. - What's up, man?
- 嘿 你好嗎 - 你好 - Hey, what's up? - Hello.
- 很高興認識你 - 這是傑西 - Nice to meet you. - This is Jesse.
- 傑西你好 - 傑西 這是費恩 - Jesse. - Jesse, this is Fern.
- 我是費恩南多 - 你好 - Fernando Thomas. - Hello.
他是全紐約最溫柔的人 This is the sweetest man in New York.
我工作的時候 就由他負責照顧你 He's gonna help take care of you while I'm workin'.
你有沒有注意到約翰尼最喜歡亮燈的景色 Also notice how Johnny just like lights up?
我發現了 I know.
他就像...迷你版約翰尼 He is like a... like a mini Johnny.
沒錯 Right.
戴著...戴著... With the... with the...
- 戴著小兜帽... - 沒錯 小兜帽 - With the little hoods... - Yeah, the little hoods.
還有柔軟的頭髮 And the flopsy hair.
什麼 怎麼啦 What? Yeah.
- 隨便轉轉 - 嗯 哼 - Just hangin' out. - Uh-huh.
- 嗯 嗯 - 好了 - Mm-hmm. - You know, we're gonna
你得再吃兩口 hold off till we eat more.
再吃幾口 We're gonna hold off till we eat more.
抱歉 I'm sorry.
得再吃點東西 We're gonna hold off till we eat more.
- 就放在這裏 - 嗯 - It's right here. - Mm-hmm.
你先把這個吃了 因為冰淇淋已經在融化了 So if you eat this, 'cause it's melting,
如果你能用最快的速度把這個吃了 if you eat this as quick as you can,
也不要太快 只要再多吃幾口 not too fast, but just get so many... A few more bites
你就能吃冰激淋了 and you can have the ice cream.
吃吧 不夠我再去拿 Go for it. You did it.
- 行了 行了 - 嗯 - Enough. Enough. - Mm.
你在網上見過的最瘋狂的事是什麼 Craziest thing you've seen on the internet.
- 好吧 - 說吧 - Okay. - Go.
就是我...我喜歡看陰謀論 So I... I like conspiracies.
很好 Perfect.
- 太好了 - 給我們說... - Great. - Tell us...
我們...再吃點西蘭花 Uh, let's eat... Just a little bit of broccoli
- 然後再說... - 好的 - and then talk about... - Yeah.
- 我喜歡陰謀論 - 好的 再吃點 - I love conspiracies. - Okay, a little bit
西蘭花 然後再說嗎 好的 of broccoli and then we can talk? Uh-huh.
對 然後再說... 再說你的陰謀論 Yeah, and talk... then ou can talk about conspiracies.
就是說政府擁有一批螞蟻 Yeah, the government got, like, a colony of ants.
我覺得是這麼回事 This is how I think it happened.
- 好的 - 放在石頭裏 - Okay. - And like in the rock
然後放在死人的屍體裏 and they place it inside a dead person.
- 好的 - 然後能讓死人復活 - Okay. - And they made him alive
然後這個人就...體內就有了非常多的螞蟻 and he has a plan... planets of ants inside of him.
- 哦 螞蟻... - 哦 這個超嚇人 - Oh, ants... - Oh, this is scary stuff.
- 費恩 - 嗯... - Fern. - Do, um...
- 費恩 - 我知道一個 - Fern. - Uh, I know one.
- 嘿 嘿 嘿 - 好了 我給你看SCP基金會 - Hey, hey, hey. - Oh, I'll show you SCP.
- 好的 - 不要給他看手機 - Yeah. - No screen time.
- 好的 好的 好的 - 你搜 SCP 1 - Yeah, yeah, yeah. - Do SCP 1.
現在不要看手機 好了 Not screen time right now, come on.
有說到一個 是他們在森林裏發現的大塊頭 One of them, it was a big thing that they found in like a forest
他們把它的臉剝下來 and they took the face off of it.
等等 你是說 Wait, like...
然後給它打了一堆注射劑 And injected it with a bunch of injections
- 讓它變得很強大 - 哇 - to make it powerful. - Whoa.
他們想把它打造成政府的武器... It was meant to be like a government weapon...
然後利用它 they were gonna use.
你的...你的朋友們也有你這些愛好嗎 Do you... Do all your friends act like you?
完全沒有 And that would be a big no.
約翰尼 Johnny.
嘿 嘿 嘿 嘿 嘿 Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey.
你好啊 百老匯的日光浴 What up, Sunny Spa E Broadway?
我不知道這上面寫了什麼 I don't know what that says.
嘿 嘿 嘿 嘿 嘿 Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey.
- 哇 - 好了 嘿 - Whoa! - Come on. Hey.
- 嘿 怎麼回事 - 哦 - Hey, what's goin' on? - Oh.
終於回來了 Made it back.
我好累 And I was tired.
累死我了 so tired,
但是他一點也不累 but he wasn't.
你有沒有帶你的牙刷 So do you have your toothbrush,
- 我怎麼沒找到 - 沒帶 - 'cause I don't see it. - No.
拜託 我...我讓你裝上的啊 Come on, I... I told you to pack it.
怎麼你沒帶嗎 What? You didn't bring it?
呃 沒有 Um, I didn't.
你是不是難以表達自己的情緒 Do you have trouble expressing your emotion?
好吧 我現在感到非常沮喪 Well, I'm feeling pretty frustrated right now.
這樣很好 That's good.
坐下來 把你的情緒發洩出來 Just sit down, you can let it all come out.
嘿 怎麼了嗎 Hey, you okay?
我的朋友們不像我這樣說話 因為 My friends don't talk like me, because...
我其實沒什麼朋友 I don't really have friends.
我一般都是和大人一起玩 I mostly hang out with adults.
不行 傑西 不行 回床上去 No, Jesse, no. Back to bed.
我有嗎 我...我都不記得說過這話了 I did? I don't... I don't remember saying that.
我把他帶到沙發上 讓他躺下 I took him to the couch, I laid him down,
坐在他旁邊一直到他入睡 and I sat with him till he was asleep.
我起身慢慢走回我的房間 I got up and slowly started walking back to my room.
我今晚不能和你一起睡嗎 Can't I just sleep with you tonight?
你為什麼讓我把那些甜食全吃了 Oh, why did you let me eat all that sugar?
媽媽就不會讓我吃 Mom would not let me eat that.
天啊 是你說她會讓你吃的 Oh, my God, you said that she would let you.
你能不能和我說說媽媽小時候的樣子 Can you tell me about Mom when she was a little girl?
我說「她很可愛」 I said, "She was cute."
他說... He said...
我聽說過她的男朋友們 I heard about her boyfriends,
然後她逃跑了 總是讓自己陷入麻煩 and she ran away, and she got in trouble all the time.
我聽說她流過產 And I heard that she got an abortion.
我他媽要怎麼回答這句話 What the fuck do I say to that?
連我都不知道這件事 I didn't even know about it.
你知道嗎 女人的身體 You know, a woman's body is, um,
就是...也許所有人 like a... um, maybe every person.
就是包括你... Like you have the right...
對你自己的身體有決定權 .of your own body
所以一個女人當然也有這樣的權利 and a woman certainly has the right.
這就是... 這就叫「選擇的權利」 It's like... it's called "the right to choose".
好了 媽的算了 嗯 Okay, now fuck that. Um...
讓我給你講講 我媽媽是怎麼哄我睡覺的 Let me tell you how my mom puts me to sleep.
躺下 Now, lay down.
好的 Okay.
放鬆你的雙腳 放鬆你的雙腿 Rest your feet, rest your legs.
放鬆你的手 放鬆你的手臂 Rest your hands, rest your arms.
我媽媽絕對不會做這種事 My mom would never do this.
放鬆你的雙眼 Rest your eyes.
放鬆你的嘴巴 Rest your mouth.
放鬆你的下巴 Rest your jaw.
放空你的大腦 Rest your mind.
別想任何事 No more thoughts tonight.
別擔心任何事 No worries.
只想著天空中的星星 Just stars in the sky.
所以呢 他是不是有 So what? Does he have something that it...
失眠的毛病 Is it a sleeping problem?
聽著 他可能 Listen, he's probably
只是被刺激過頭了 你給他糖了嗎 just over stimulated. Did you give him sugar?
你讓他看你電腦上的那些亂七八糟的東西了嗎 Did you let him watch shit on your computer?
沒有 No.
那會讓他特別癲狂的 'Cause that makes him crazy.
你得 慢慢習慣這些 You're just, uh, used to this.
比如 為什麼地上有那麼多劃痕 Like, why are there so many scratches?
我沒法習慣這個 I'm not used to it.
有時候我真恨這個小兔崽子 I fucking hate it sometimes.
但我是那麼愛他 勝過... I mean, I love him more than I...
比我自己想像的還要愛他 I can even understand
可正是因為我能設身處地地替他考慮 and that makes it even worse when I can
有時反而更糟糕了 barely stand to be in the same room with him,
他一直這樣 滔滔不絕 going on and on, talking, talking...
有一根樹枝 Another stick.
他永遠在說無數毫無意義的事情 Relentlessly about nothing random nothingness,
時時刻刻擾亂我的思緒 interrupting every thought I might have...
- 踢走 踢走 把它踢走 - 哦 天啊 我知道 - Kick, kick, kick, kick. - Oh, God, and I know.
從給他做午飯開始 一直到我刷盤子 From making him lunch and doing the dishes,
從給他做午飯開始 一直到我刷盤子 from making lunch and then doing the dishes,
從給他做晚飯開始 一直到我刷盤子 from making dinner and then doing the dishes,
從給他做午飯開始 一直到我出門買東西 from lunch, and then going grocery shopping,
一次 一次又一次 他永遠這樣 on, and on, and on, and on, he never stops.
有蜜蜂 Bees!
他媽就是一個噩夢 It's a fucking nightmare.
是啊 Yeah.
慢點 Slow down!
你是不是也覺得我現在糟透了 Do you think I'm horrible now?
不 才沒有 我很同情你 No, no, I have so much sympathy.
對了 你還得給他補充點蛋白質 好嗎 Listen, you just have to get some protein into him, okay?
你知道的 那種噁心的卷餅 You know, those disgusting little, uh, rolls,
有蒜味臘腸和芝士 什麼的...他很喜歡 the salami and cheese things, just... He loves them.
我們現在去那兒 Where are we going now?
去給你買 I have to find you
噁心的蒜味臘腸和芝士卷餅 some disgusting salami and cheese rolls.
從歷史上來說 紐約象徵著 Historically, New York represents the future
移民的未來和各種可能性 and possibility for so many immigrants.
我們採訪了一些移民的孩子 We ask today's children of immigrants
讓他們描述想像中的未來 what they think about the future
和現在他們所處的這個世界的樣子 and the world they live in now.
我以前從沒想過 I never thought that I would be this scared
我會如此恐懼未來可能會發生的事情 about like what might happen in the future,
但是現在 but then now,
我開始考慮這些事了 I'm starting to think about it,
比如 我沒法...沒法... like, I can't... I can't...
我沒法想像動物都滅絕了會是什麼樣 I just can't imagine animals going extinct,
因為環境污染 可以說地球已經奄奄一息了 pollution, like, the Earth dying, basically.
我害怕的主要是孤獨感吧 So my fears would be like loneliness
就是那種 比如說 and, like, you know,
別人都不理解你 just like people not understanding you
就算他們也努力試著理解你 even though they're there to understand you
還有類似的情況 and stuff like that.
我覺得這挺恐怖的 It's just really scary,
因為感覺你只是弧身一人 'cause it feels like you have nobody.
我媽媽總是和我說 My mom always tells me like,
「我討厭哭的小孩」 "I hate kids that cry."
有一次我和她說 「天 我有...」 There was one time I told her, "Oh, my gosh, I can..."
「我有哭的權力啊」 "Like, I could cry, uh,"
「大家都會哭啊」 然後她說 "like, it's like a human thing to do," and then she's like,
「不 你應該很堅強」 之類的 "No, you're supposed to be, uh, strong and stuff."
我估計這就是我最討厭的事情了吧 So, yeah, I think that's what I hate the most.
當別人用「說說又不會怎麼樣」給長篇大論結尾時 When people end up saying, "Oh, words don't hurt,"
我都...覺得很難過 it... like it gets to me so bad.
他們明明對你一無所知 卻還是對你評頭論足 People will just judge you without even knowing.
就好像一無所知並不是他們的錯一樣 It's like not even their fault that they don't know.
他們長大成人的過程大概和我不一樣吧 They probably just wasn't raised like I am
他們不明白那些事可以對別人做 那些事不可以 knowing how to treat people, how not to treat people.
我不喜歡所有人都是一種 I don't like when everyone's
壓力很大的樣子 just in a stressed mindset
每個人都把自己封閉起來 and they're very closed into themselves.
他們拒絕和別人溝通 They just don't speak to each other
把自己藏起來 與世隔絕 and they're just like kind of hiding away
借此逃避現實 from like real life.
我喜歡那些 I feel like people
試著表達自己情緒的人 who try to express their emotions,
雖然...有些人很討厭這種人 like they... they would get a lot of hate.
這種事在二十世紀尤其多 It happened like more in the 20th century.
討厭他們的人不允許他們做自己 So instead of letting them be them,
所以就用很惡劣的方法來反擊 they wanted to oppose them in like bad horrible ways.
但我感覺 今時今日 表達自己的想法容易一些了 But I feel like now you could speak your feelings easier,
但仍然很難 but not easily.
(兔崽子怎麼樣了)
噢 抱歉 Oh, sorry.
(挺好的 咱倆發短信的功夫他還在取笑我呢)
發消息 發消息 Texting. Texting.
- 哈 哈 哈 - 我在發消息... - Ha, ha, ha. - I am tex...
(保羅怎麼樣了) 喂 你在幹什麼 Oh, what... what are you doing?
呃 嘿 是在模仿誰呢 Uh, hey, who are you mimicking here
你在那假裝滑稽地發消息 with that fancy texting you're doing?
(他更想走了)
你才在滑稽地發消息呢 You're doing fancy texting.
我是在真的發消息 But I'm actually texting something.
- 你才沒有呢 - 嘿 看這裏 - No, you're not. - Uh, here.
保健與美容用晶 Health and beauty.
(剛和保險公司的混蛋們打了幾個小時電話)
哦 在這呢 Oh, here it is.
好了 選一個吧 我去找牙膏 All right, grab one of those and I'll find toothpaste.
為什麼牙膏牙刷不放在一起呢 For some reason, they're not in the same aisle.
♪ I am a toothbrush ♪
不...不要拿那個 Mm-mm, not... Not that one.
那會把你媽惹毛的 That'll flip your mom out.
♪ I am your toothbrush ♪
(抱歉 小芙)
你不能拿這個 You can't get that one.
好了 再選一個你喜歡的 Come on, find which one you want.
可我媽又不在這兒... Oh, she's not here, so...
但她總是對的 Well, she's right.
- 所以... - 拿這個嘛 求求你 - So... - Can I please have it?
得了吧 你刷牙的時候真的有必要... Oh, come on, you... You don't need a song...
- 求求你 - 聽這個歌嗎 - Please. - to brush your teeth to.
要是這次給你買了這個 The next thing you know, you're gonna need
你以後所有事兒都得有個電子產品激勵你才行了 electronic stimuli for everything you do.
你知道嗎 適應環境是很重要的 You know, it's important to just live in it, you know?
在平和安靜的環境裏 Peace and quiet.
你們這一代人都長歪了 Your generation is completely lost.
嗯... Mm...
傑西 Jesse?
嗨 你有看到一個小孩嗎 Hey, did you see a little kid running around here?
- 你有看到一個小孩嗎 - 沒有 - Did you see a kid here? - No.
傑西 Jesse!
你在幹什麼 What are you doin'?
你真該看看你的表情 You should see your face.
你不能這樣 你明白嗎 Hey, you can't do that, you understand?
不能這樣嚇唬別人 You can't do that to somebody.
你嚇壞了 You're freakin' out.
- 適可而止 - 適可而止 - Stop it. - Stop it.
- 你適可而止 - 你適可而止 - You stop it. - You stop it.
- 別鬧了 - 別鬧了 - Stop! - Stop!
- 夠了 - 夠了 - Enough! - Enough!
- 不要鬧了 - 滾開 - You stop now! - Get off!
抱歉 我太過分了 Sorry, it's so ridiculous.
我剛才...我剛才說 Do you know I just... I just said, you know,
「你不能拿這個牙刷」 "You can't have that toothbrush,"
然後我走到另一邊 and I went around the corner
去拿牙膏 for a second to grab toothpaste,
然後他就不見了 and then he disappeared.
我跑來跑去 想找到他在那兒 So I'm runnin' after him, tryin' to find him,
然後他跳出來嚇唬我 and he jumps out, scares me,
然後我... 我真的氣壞了 我吼了他 and, yeah, I... I got angry and I yelled at him.
我吼了他 I yelled at him.
這...實在是... That's... It's...
這...這太糟糕了 It's... It's fucking awful.
我也經歷過 I've done it.
我知道看著那雙無辜的眼睛 I know that look in those little eyes,
讓我更氣了 it's the worst.
但沒關係 But it's okay also.
你和他解釋一下就好了 You know, you just have to explain to him
你當時被他嚇壞了 所以你才吼他 that you were scared, and that's why you yelled,
然後和他道歉 你懂吧 and then you apologize, you know?
他不過是個小孩而已 和他坦誠交流就好了 He's... he's a person, you just be honest with him.
這叫做「修復關係」 It's called "doing a repair."
網上有...網上有這個的攻略呢 There's... There's scripts for it online.
好吧 聽起來... Okay, sounds...
- 讓我...我把... - 挺簡單的 - Let me... Let me... - Sounds easy.
- 這才... - 好吧 - This is not... - Okay.
一點都不簡單 This is not easy.
我知道 我知道 一點都不簡單 No, I know. I know, it's not.
嗯 Um, yeah.
- 讓我和他說說... - 好的 - Let me talk to him and... - Okay.
現在 我來吼他 Now, I'll yell at him.
好 謝謝你和我說這些 All right, thank you for talking me down.
等一下 Now, hold on.
嘿 傑西 你媽媽的電話 Hey, Jesse, it's your mom.
- 喂 - 你好呀 寶貝 - Hello. - Hi, sweetie.
你還好嗎 Hi. Are you okay?
還好 I'm okay.
我只是和他開個玩笑 他沒必要給你打電話的 I was just jokin' around, he didn't need to call you.
我知道 我知道你是在開玩笑 I know. I know you were,
但你確實嚇到他了 傑西 but you really scared him, Jesse, okay?
你不能這樣 You can't do that.
媽媽 為什麼你站在他那邊啊 Mom, why are you taking his side?
我不是站在他那邊 寶貝 對事不對人 I'm not on his side. Sweetie, there are no sides,
你得聽約翰尼的話 好嗎 but you have to listen to Johnny, okay?
你現在住在他家裏 他在照顧你 You're staying at his house, he's taking care of you.
為什麼 Why?
他為什麼要照顧我 Why is he taking care of me?
好了寶貝 Sweetie, come on.
對約翰尼好一點 Just be nice to Johnny.
♪ I am a toothbrush ♪
♪ My name is funky brush ♪
我都不瞭解你 I don't even know you.
為什麼我媽讓我和你在一塊 Why my mom let me come with you?
好了 小伙子 別這樣 Hey, man, come on.
傑西 之前你不是也想來嗎 Jesse, you wanted to come.
我又沒得選 I didn't really have a choice.
她是一個很壞 很壞的媽媽 She's a horrible, horrible mom.
我知道 你不是真的這麼想的 I know you don't really feel that way.
我的想法在我的腦子裏 My feelings are inside me.
你又不知道我是怎麼想的 You don't know what they are.
我知道你很生我的氣 I think you're mad at me,
因為我也嚇到你了... because I scared you and...
不 她總是想一出是一出 No, she just does what she wants.
不 不是這樣的 傑西 No, that's not true, Jesse.
你什麼都不知道 她就是這樣的人 You don't know what you're talkin' about. She does!
你覺得你為什麼會在這兒 Well, why do you think you're here?
你覺得你媽媽 Do you think that your mom
真的想和你分開嗎 really wants to be away from you?
你覺得她想嗎 Really?
她在努力幫你爸爸 She's tryin' to help your dad.
為什麼我爸爸需要幫忙啊 Well, why does he need help?
他 嗯... He, um...
他怎麼了 What's wrong with him?
他只是... 他... He just... He...
你想給你媽媽打個電話嗎 Do you wanna call her?
我想要媽媽 I want my mom.
嘿 我也很抱歉 Hey, I'm so sorry.
嘿 等等 傑西 Hey, hey, Jesse.
傑西 Jesse.
我以為我在幫忙 I thought I was helping,
但不知道怎麼回事 反而添亂了 and somehow it got away from me.
我也不知道為什麼 I don't know even how.
他都知道什麼 他都知道嗎 What... What does he know? Did... Did he know?
他知道你們的事嗎 Does he know everything?
嗯 他知道了 Yeah, he knows.
讓我和他說吧 Um, let me talk to him.
嘿 傑西 Hey, Jesse.
告訴她我沒事 Just tell her I'm fine.
來嘛 和她說說話 Come on, just talk to her.
和她說不通 She's impossible.
等等 別掛 別掛 等會兒 Hey, hey, hold on, hold on, hold on.
小芙 你說吧我開外放了 Viv, you're... You're on speaker.
傑西 寶貝 聽我說 Jesse, honey, listen to me,
你爸爸會好起來的 your dad's gonna be fine.
好嗎 Okay?
就像以前一樣嗎 Is it like before?
是的 Yeah.
對 就像以前一樣 Yeah, it's like before,
他會好起來的 好嗎 but he's gonna be fine, okay?
我不想讓你擔心的 但我還是搞砸了 And I didn't wanna worry you, but I messed up, okay?
我應該早點告訴你的 對不起 I should have told you, I'm sorry.
告訴她我沒事 Tell her I'm fine.
呃 Um...
小芙 我很抱歉... Viv, I'm so sorry, uh...
沒事的 沒事的 It's fine, it's fine.
告訴他我愛他 也很想他 好嗎 Um, just tell him I love him and I miss him, okay?
好的 Okay.
我得去找他了 I'm gonna go get him.
你的小孩會不會 Is your child like, you know,
因為不想洗頭和你吵架 fighting about washing his hair,
我就總是那樣 'cause I could do that anytime.
你不想聊聊嗎 You don't wanna talk?
我不是正在聊天嗎 Mm, I am talking.
你能好好說話嗎 Are you gonna be like normal?
我現在就 正在 好好說話啊 I am talking, like, you know, normal.
好吧 Okay.
在孤兒院的時候我們得自己洗頭髮 We have to wash our own hair at the orphanage.
- 那很難啊 - 沒錯 - Ooh, that's harsh. - It is.
我很抱歉 Hmm, sorry about that.
真的很難 It is harsh.
算不上是懲罰 就只是 Not even as a punishment, just,
「自己洗頭 傻孩子們」 "Wash your hair, you dumb kids."
嗯 Yeah.
真是個糟糕的地方 What an awful place.
是啊 Yeah.
好了 Okay.
你現在要因為洗頭髮和我吵一架嗎 Do you want to fight about washing your hair
然後讓我給你洗頭髮嗎 and then I'll wash your hair?
好吧 年輕人 我想你的頭髮該洗了 All right, I think we have to wash your hair, young man.
你怎麼不洗自己的頭髮 老頭 Why don't you wash your hair, old man?
先洗你的 Well, you first.
不 你先洗 No, you first.
我告訴你 I'm telling you right now,
你的頭髮該洗了 you're gonna have to wash your hair.
我告訴你 I'm telling you right now
你的頭髮該洗了 老頭 you're gonna wash your hair, old man.
學得不錯 我的聲音是那樣的嗎 Nice. Is that how I sound?
- 沒錯 - 嘖 - Yeah. - Ugh.
你是老·約翰尼 You're like old Johnny, Johnny.
我是約翰尼 I'm Johnny.
哈 頭髮就得這麼洗 老頭 Yeah, well, that's the way to wash your hair, old man.
「鐵皮人」 "The tin woodman."
「滿意地嘆一口氣 放下斧頭」 "gave a sigh of satisfaction and lowered his ax."
「舒服極了」 他說 "'This is a great comfort," he said.
「自從我生銹開始 我就一直舉著我的斧子」 "'I have been holding that ax in the air ever since I rusted"
「現在我終於能放下它了」 "and I'm glad to put it down at last."
「現在 如果你給我的關節上油」 "'Now, if you will oil the joints of my legs,"
「我就會好起來的」 "'I shall be all right once more.'"
「然後他們就給他的腿上了油」 "So they oiled his legs"
「直到他能自由活動他的腿」 "until he could move them freely,"
「他一遍又一遍地感謝他們 讓他獲得了解脫」 "and he thanked them again and again for his release."
你們還在聽嗎 Are you guys still there?
繼續讀 媽媽 Keep reading, Mama.
好 Okay.
「如果不是你們來了」 "'I might have stood there always"
「我可能要一直站在這裏了 他說" "'if you had not come along, ' he said."
「你們為什麼來這裏呀」 "'How did you happen to be here?'"
「我們要去翡翠城」 "'We are on our way to the Emerald City"
「見偉大的魔法師 她回答道」 "'to see the great Oz, ' she answered."
(小崽子睡著了)
所以說他就那樣走進屋裏 So does he just like walk in to a room
假裝自己是一個孤兒 and pretend to be an orphan?
也要分場景 There's different scenarios.
- 好吧 - 這...這很...聽著 - Okay. - It's... It's... Listen...
行吧 Okay.
你不會想知道的 真的 You don't wanna get into that, I promise you.
好吧 你們自己解決吧 Okay. All right, I'll leave that between you.
我正試著弄明白怎麼和他交流 I'm trying like to figure out how to talk to him
所以我會試著配合... and so I'll try to play along...
- 我懂 - 用一種非直接的方式 - Yeah. - In an indirect way
其實這挺可笑的 他顯然有話要說 and like, this is ridiculous. He wants to say something.
我開誠佈公地和他說 I have to be open and so I say,
「嘿 小伙子 我知道」 "Hey, man, I know"
-「你有話要說」 - 嗯 - "you wanna talk about something?" - Yeah.
然後...嗯 我就這樣看著他 And... Yeah, and I look at him like this,
- 掏心窩子的眼神 - 嗯 很真誠 - like real earnest. - Yeah, sincere.
然後 他一副不屑一顧的樣子 And then, he just is like dismissive,
弄得我很尷尬 我真的覺得很崩潰 and makes me feel stupid, and then I feel crushed...
然後...然後... And... And...
我知道聽超來好像很好玩 And... I know it's funny now,
但是發生的時候 真的...讓人精疲力盡 but when it happens, it's... It's frustrating.
嗯 Yeah.
他看起來游刃有餘呢 He seems like he's doing good.
確實 但他應該再把麥克舉高一點 He is, but he should be holding the mic
如果他想收那邊的聲音的話 他就得舉高一點 if he wants to get that, you hold the mic up.
才不用呢 他會找到自己的方法的 No, he's gotta find his own way!
- 是啊 - 我們都是這樣的 - Yes. - That's how we all did.
假設你要和 Let's say somebody your age
來自另一個國家的同齡人 that was coming from another...
- 進行交流... - 嗯 - Another country... - Yeah.
你會怎麼和他們描述我們的國家呢 What would you tell them about the US?
你會在這裏看到很多醜惡的事情 You come here and you'll see a lot of bad,
但是這裏也很美 but it's beautiful.
雖然你可能會遇到方方面面的間題 Even though there could be like problems here and there, you know,
但是你也會看到 有一些善良的人有金子般的心 you see all these good people who just have kind hearts
雖然他們不認識你 and, you know, and they don't even know you.
我和我爸之間有很多問題 There's been a lot of issues with my dad.
他現在在監獄裏 He's in jail right now,
一切都很困難 你懂吧 so everything is, like, crazy, you know?
我的妹妹 她其實並不明白 My little sister, she didn't, like, really see
到底發生了什麼 what was actually going on.
她不明白我的處境 The stuff that I went through, I don't want her
我也不想讓她明白 to know any of that or just be,
我希望她永遠不需要面對這些 like, have to think about that.
每個人的生活中都有很多責任 You have a lot of responsibilities in your life,
有時麻煩就這樣找上了門 and sometimes they just come to you,
你也無能為力 and you can't really do anything about them.
麻煩總會出現的 They're just there.
我很驕傲 I feel like a responsibility
我承擔起了這份責任 to like that I'm proud to take,
因為我很愛她 because I love her a lot,
我也不介意 and basically, it wouldn't matter to me
扮演一個亦父亦兄的角色 if she sees me as a father or a brother.
嗯 大概就是這樣 Yeah, that's pretty much it.
你是個好男人 You're a good man.
你多久...會去探望你父親一次 How... How often do you... do you get to visit your dad?
我總去 Always.
我感覺我生活的動力之一就是 Yeah, I feel like that's one of my like motivations
去想像未來 to just think about the future.
未來的無限可能 Everything that could happen...
「我希望他們信任我 配合我 允許我進行記錄」 "I ask for trust, cooperation, and permission"
「雖然我也不知道他們的經歷」 "without knowing where the experience"
「會把話題導向那裏」 "will lead the subject."
「我可以 也總是逃離 一個地方 一個窘境 一個難題」 "I can and will leave a place, a situation, a problem,"
「這些受訪者不能」 "but the people I interview cannot."
「這次的經歷讓我」 "The work offers the interviewer"
「有理由 也有渠道」 "access and a reason"
「去接觸那些對我而言全然陌生的世界」 "to stay in a world that's not my own,"
「和我現在的世界截然不同」 "complete distraction from my own life,"
「他們都有一種無形的 不可戰勝的力量」 "a sense of invincibility, a sense of invisibility."
「我在希望中前行」 "I traffic in hope"
「雖然我也無法預測」 "without the ability to know"
「未來會發生什麼」 "what will happen in the future."
「這次採訪給了受訪者們一個契機」 "The work offers the subjects a chance to speak"
「去談論那些他們從末談論過的東西」 "of things they have never spoken of,"
「也讓他們感覺到」 "a chance to see themselves as subjects"
「自己是值得被重視 被傾聽的對象」 "worthy of time and attention."
「這次的採訪」 "The work offers the subjects"
「讓受訪者們去設想自己的未來」 "the creation of an image of self,"
「雖然在這樣一個大環境裏」 "the distribution of which they cannot control"
「每個人都身不由己」 "on a global scale, in perpetuity."
你知道嗎 有很多 you know, there's, like,
其實有很多中國人 a lot of Chinese people actually,
所以交流起來不會很困難 so it's not, like, hard to communicate.
有的時候在別的地方我會... Sometimes in other places, I'm actually...
你讓約翰尼採訪你了嗎 You let Johnny interview you yet?
噢 天啊 沒有 Oh, God, no.
真是個明智之舉呢 That seems like a smart move.
他的問題太多了 對吧 Too many questions with that guy, right?
永遠都在尋求答案 Not enough answers.
我真的好想你 寶貝 Oh, I miss you so much, babe.
我也想你 媽媽 I miss you, too, Mama.
借過一下 Excuse me, please.
謝謝 Thank you.
我們一直在全國各地採訪孩子們 We've been goin' around the country asking kids
他們對未來的看法 what they think the future would be like.
要是有你不想回答的問題 If there's anything you don't wanna answer,
你可以說「跳過」或者「不答」 you can just say "skip" or "no,"
或者「我不想回答這個題」 or "I do not want to do this question".
好的 Okay.
為什麼你和我媽不能像兄妹一樣相處呢 Why don't you and my mom act like brother and sister?
- 你想問這個嗎 - 嗯 - This one? - Yep.
你為什麼總是一個人 Why are you alone?
得了吧 誰會在意我的回答 吧啦吧啦 I mean, who cares? Blah, blah, blah.
都一樣... The same...
就是說 誰會在意啊 Yeah, exactly, who cares?
在我爸第一次發病的時候 你有讓我媽離開他嗎 Did you tell my mom to leave my dad when he first got sick?
你有嗎 Did you?
我告訴她 照顧好自己 I told her to take care of herself.
一堆敷衍的廢話 Blah, blah, blah.
不 這不是敷衍的廢話 No, it's not blah, blah, blah.
- 這是 - 不 不是 - It is. - No, it's not.
這就是 It is.
好吧... Okay...
- 也就是說你說過 - 我們每個人 - Means you did it. - There were many things
都做過很多事 說過很多話 that were done, and everybody said a lot of things,
擔心過很多事情 and there was a lot of concern,
但很多時候我們自己也不清楚 and sometimes we don't completely understand
我們在做什麼 我們為什麼要做這個 對不對 why we're doing the things that we're doing, right?
但我從來沒有 But I never did anything
做過故意傷害你媽媽 because I wanted to hurt your mom
你爸爸或者你的事情 or hurt your dad or hurt you.
我希望大家都好好的 I only wanted everything to be okay.
吧啦 吧啦 吧啦 Oh, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.
嗯 Hmm.
也許...這些都是廢話 Maybe... Maybe it is blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.
都是廢話 Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.
沒錯 Exactly.
從未知之地而來 Coming from somewhere unknown,
他和小孩一樣高 he's as tall as a small person!
傑西大俠 Jesse the Man!
小心點 兄弟 Watch it, man.
不不不別這樣 考慮一下我的感受好吧 Wait, wait, wait, wait. Have to do my expression, too.
你不能就這樣蹦上來 好嗎 You can't just jump right into it, okay?
- 下去 - 介紹你自己 - Go back. - Do your introduction.
好吧 All right!
嘿
它會摧毀了你 It will destroy you!
就是這麼幹嗎 That's how you do it.
然後他說「給我收拾東西吧」 Then, he just said, "Pack my bag, get my stuff,"
「把我送到醫院去」 "take me to the hospital."
「要是你不送我去醫院 我又會亂跑 不是嗎」 "If you don't, I'm just gonna run away again, right?"
這倒是真的 Which is true.
然後我就帶他去了急救室 So I took him to the ER,
真是太糟了 which was fucking awful.
很顯然 保羅嘛 Absolutely, Paul.
藥物的劑量必須非常精確 The milligrams have to be specific...
我們會確保這一點的 We'll make sure that they are.
因為馬克林醫生說過 Because Dr. Marklin said that,
他研究了好幾個月 and he worked on it for three months,
但情況還是時好時壞 and it was still going back and forth.
我不是馬克林醫生 我... Well, I'm not Dr. Marklin, I'm...
你敢相信嗎 約翰尼 I mean, you can't believe it, Johnny,
太丟臉了 it's so humiliating.
他們問他同一個問題 They just asked him the same questions
一次 一次又一次 over and over, and over again.
我吃的食物的量 I have been eating
睡覺的時間 都很規律 and I have been sleeping the regular amount
就像以前那樣 that I usually eat and sleep.
你問我問題 我就回答 You ask me a question, I answer it,
但突然你就去問她了 and then all of a sudden you ask her.
那你為什麼不直接問她這些破事兒呢 Like, just why don't you ask her the goddamn question.
之後我們終於把他送到了一個真正的康復中心 And then we finally got him into a real center.
我之前來過這種地方 我知道 I've done this before, I know it all.
是的 不能有鞋帶 你做得對 Yeah, no shoelaces, you're right.
他很害怕 He was so scared.
請你在這裏簽字 I'm gonna have you sign off
這些物品需要你帶回去 that you're goona be taking those things home.
- 嗯 好的 這裏嗎 - 是的 - Okay, sure, right here? - Yeah.
等我要走的時候 他特別溫柔地... And then when I was leaving, he asked me in the sweetest...
特別卑微地問我 我能不能再待一會兒 In the sweetest way if I could just stay
等他稍微好一點了再走 until he was a little better.
他的原話「稍微好一點」 That's what he said, "Just a little better."
唉 我很抱歉 Oh, I'm so sorry.
我也想讓傑西有爸爸陪著 And I want Jesse to have his dad, you know?
可是我又能怎麼辦呢 I mean, what the fuck can I do?
我也得... I've gotta...
嗯 你得陪著他 Yeah, you gotta stay with him.
真的 小芙 我們相處得很好 Really, Viv, we're doin' okay.
你專注於你需要解決的事情就行了 You just take care of what you need to.
傑西可以和我一起待著 Jesse can keep staying here with me.
我們在一塊很開心 We're havin' a great time.
我找到了一個在新奧爾良的人 I found someone in New Orleans
她能幫我們找孩子接受採訪 我覺得我們應該去一趟 who can get us kids and I think we should do it.
嗯 我明白 Okay, I know,
但我現在要照顧傑西 我可能 but I got Jesse and I just don't know
我現在可能沒法過去 if I can make that, um, trip right now.
哦 可我不想一個人去 Uh, I don't wanna go solo.
不 主要是 No, it's sort of like
我們之前和觀眾和贊助者說過 we told, like, audiences, and funders...
- 約翰尼 - 大家都知道... - Johnny! - And everybody that we...
- 約翰尼 - 我們原計劃去 - Johnny! - were gonna go
- 很多城市 - 約翰尼 - to multiple cities. - Johnny.
- 約翰尼 我們去公園吧 - 我們得照計劃行事 - Johnny, let's go to the park. - I think we have to do it.
- 等等 拜託 等會兒 - 約翰尼 - Stop, stop. Please. - Johnny.
- 停 - 很遺憾 - Stop. - Unfortunately...
- 別打電話了 - 怎麼了 - Get off your phone. - Yeah, what?
你是... Are...
你是...你是和傑西在一起呢麼 Are you... Are you with Jesse?
- 你們怎麼樣 - 嗯 挺好的 - How's it going? - Yeah, yeah, fine.
你剛才...你剛才說什麼 So what... Where we at with things?
我覺得我們可以去新奧爾良 I think New Orleans is a good idea.
我有認識的人 I know someone down there.
她可以幫我們找受訪的孩子們 She can get us kids.
我們只需要告訴他們我們要做什麼 We just need to tell them we wanna do that
然後我們就能讓費恩 and then we can have Fern,
給我們訂票什麼的 like, start booking everything for us.
我知道 但是如果 I know, but a lot...
傑西 Jesse?
你聽見沒 Can you hear me?
等一下 Hold on a second.
等我一下 Just, like, give me a sec.
你兩天前還對這個想法很感興趣呢 You were jazzed about the idea like two days ago.
- 傑西 - 你說我們只需要 - Jesse? - You were like we just need
讓你回到那個位置 to get you back to that spot.
現在不是時候 This is not a great time.
- 嗯 對 -我 呃... - Yeah, yeah. - I, uh...
聽著 我... Listen, let me, um...
先掛了 好嗎 我之後再打給你 Let me call you back, okay? I'll call you back.
好吧 Okay, okay.
傑西 Jesse?
傑西 Jesse.
該死 完了 Fuck. Oh, fuck.
媽的 Oh, fuck.
噢 Oh.
傑西 Jesse?
傑西 Jesse!
等等 傑西 Wait, wait! Jesse.
你剛去那了 Where'd you go?
- 我那都沒去 - 不 你不在 - I was right there! - No, you weren't!
我在打電話 一轉身 I was on the phone, I turned around one second
你就不見了 and you were gone!
聽著 你不能自己亂跑 Hey, listen, you can't do that,
- 你明自嗎 - 是你把我看丟了 - you understand? - You lost me!
- 我沒有看丟你 - 你有 - I didn't lose you. - You did.
我的錯嗎 好吧 是我的錯 I lost you? Okay, okay, I lost you.
我是世界上最差勁的叔叔 I'm the worst uncle in the world!
你幹什麼 What... What are you doin'?
嘿 下來 You, uh... Hey, come here!
我們上車幹什麼 What are we doin' here, huh?
不知道 I don't know.
你要是走丟了的話會很糟糕的 That could have been really, really bad.
我不需要你 I don't need you.
你太需要我了 You so need me.
他能感覺到現在的情況有多糟糕 He can feel how fucked up things are right now, okay?
所以...用他那不太會說話的孩子語言 So in his... In his little inarticulate kid way,
就是「我現在感覺失控了」 he's saying, "I'm feeling out of control right now."
「你能處理好嗎」 "Can you handle it?"
「你能理解我的這種感覺嗎」 "Can you take care of me feeling this way?"
「如果我逃離你 如果我躲著你」 "If I run away from you, if I hide from you,"
「如果我跳上這輛車 我會沒事嗎」 "even if I jump on this bus, am I gonna be okay?"
噢 我就是在幻想 Oh, I'm just, like, in this fucking fantasy
一切都在我的掌控之中 that you know, I got everything under control
你知道的 我會準備好的 and, uh, you know, I'll... I'll be there,
我會把問題都解決的 我會給你準備零食 I'll figure it out, I'll get you snacks,
我會幫你打包行李 and I'll pack your bags,
然後我們就出發 我在想 and we'll go off, I'm thinking of goin',
「我不知道我他媽在做什麼」 "I don't know what the fuck I'm doing."
沒錯 Yeah.
是的 這就是我的生活 Yeah, welcome to my fucking life.
沒人知道自己在做什麼 I... Nobody knows what they're doing.
沒人知道自己要怎麼帶孩子 Nobody knows what they're doing with these kids.
你只需要堅持下去 You just have to keep doing it.
我在大街上跑著 喊著他的名字 I ran up and down the street calling out his name.
一輛公交車從我面前經過的時候 I saw him from across the street
我從街對面看到了他 as a bus passed in front of me.
我飛奔向他 I ran towards him,
大聲喊著他的名字 「傑西」 screaming out his name, "Jesse."
他在生我的氣 他很害怕 He was mad at me, he was scared.
他轉身上了一輛公共汽車 He turned, and he walked away, and got onto a bus.
我不喜歡這種感覺 但我覺得他被寵壞了 I don't like feeling this, but I feel like he's spoiled,
或者說我被寵壞了 or I am.
真不敢相信你會這麼做 I can't believe you're doing this.
我知道 但我現在沒辦法照顧你 I know, but I can't take care of you right now.
- 你可以的 - 不行 儘快 - You can. - No, but as soon
等我把工作弄完 就會去洛杉磯... as I get done with work, I'll come out to LA and...
到時候你想做什麼我都陪你 And we'll do whatever you want.
好嗎 你覺得怎麼樣 All right? How do you like that?
我的胃好疼 My stomach hurts.
那真慘 I'm sorry.
我要拉屎 I need to poop.
- 是嗎 - 特別急 - You do? - Right now.
- 真的嗎 - 要噴出來了 - Really? - I need to poop.
你就不能...憋著嗎 You can't... you can't hold it.
我憋不住了 I can't hold my poop.
好吧 不好意思 師傅 你能找個加油站 Okay. Um, excuse me, sir, could you please pull over
或者餐廳靠邊停車嗎 at a gas station or diner?
- 好的 - 謝謝 - Okay. - Thank you.
再等一下就好了 Okay, just hold on.
謝謝 我們馬上回來 Okay, I'll be right back.
來 Here.
有洗手間可以給他用嗎 Hey, is there a bathroom he can use?
- 在裏面 - 謝謝 - Down over there. - Thank you.
慢點 小心點 Okay, hold it, just hold, hold on.
- 你還好嗎 - 不好 - You okay? - No.
行吧 拉快點 Okay, well, hurry up,
我們還得...我們還得去機場呢 'cause we got... We gotta go to the airport.
- 不 - 什麼 - No. - What?
你是真想拉屎嗎 Are you going poop?
不是 No.
你真急著用廁所嗎 Do you even have to go to the bathroom?
不是 No.
你騙到我了 你真行 You got me. You got me.
小兔崽子 You got me. You... Shit.
好了 玩夠了吧 該走了 All right, fun time's over, let's go.
- 我們來不及了 - 不要 - Time to come out. - No!
傑西快點出來 Jesse, come out right now.
- 不要 -傑西 趕緊出來 - No! - Jesse, come out right now!
對不起 I'm sorry.
對不起 我躲起來了 對不起 我跑上公車了 I'm sorry I hid, I'm sorry I ran onto the bus,
對不起 約翰尼 對不起 I'm sorry, Johnny, I am sorry!
我聽到你打電話了 I heard you talking on the phone.
你照顧不了我 You can't take care of me.
我不想回家 I don't wanna go home.
我媽只會為我爸的事難過 My mom is just gonna be sad about my dad
而我爸根本不在 and my dad's not even there.
好吧 Okay.
行吧 那麼... All right, just, um...
我馬上回來 你先別出來 I'll be right back, stay in there.
♪ Anyone ♪
♪ You can blame me ♪
♪ Try to shame me ♪
♪ And still I'll care for you ♪
♪ You can run around ♪
♪ Even put me down ♪
新 奧 爾 良 ♪ Still I'll be there for you... ♪
新奧爾良...是非常不同的 New Orleans is like... Is very different.
你在其他地方看不到的風景 You don't see it anywhere else
有時候我能理解 and, like, sometimes I understand
人們為什麼想來這裏 why people wanna come here,
因為這裏太美了 太特別了 because it's like so beautiful and just so different to where it's, like,
就是「我現在感覺失控了」 he's saying,"I'm feeling out of control right now."
有時候我們需要一些不同的生活 sometimes we need something different in our lives.
我覺得人們來這裏的時候 I feel like people are sometimes being selfish
有時會很自私他們會想 when they come here, so they're like,
「噢 我想看看不一樣的東西」 "Oh, I wanna go see something different,"
但人們沒有考慮到 but you're not takin' in consideration
自己在那裏 about where you are.
如果他們繼續 If they keep it up,
建民宿之類的東西 like buildin' Airbnbs and everything,
一切美景都將化為烏有 all of it is gonna be gone.
新奧爾良將不復存在 There is not gonna be a New Orleans,
但我也認為 我們 作為 but I also think that, like, we, as people
生活在新奧爾良的人 才造就了新奧爾良 and who live in New Orleans, make it New Orleans.
是的 Yes.
- 嘿 你好嗎 - 我很好 - Hey, how are you? - I'm good.
這是傑西 This is Jesse.
很高興認識你 傑西 我是孫尼 Nice meeting you, Jesse. I'm Sunni.
- 嘿 - 嘿 - Hey. - Hey.
- 謝謝你邀請我們 - 客氣什麼 - Thank you for having us. - Absolutely.
- 進來吧 快進來 - 我很期待 - Come on in, come on in. - I'm excited.
- 嗨 我是費恩 - 嘿 你好嗎 - Hi, I'm Fern. - Hey, how are you?
嘿費恩 很高興認識你 Hey, Fern. Nice meeting you.
從這裏穿過廚房 Through this way in the kitchen here,
後面有兩個房間 and then there are two rooms back here.
約翰尼和傑西 我想你們可以住在這裏 So Johnny and Jesse, I figure, you can be here.
浴室在... There's a bathroom...
她提到她不認為 She mentioned that she doesn't think
人之初 性本惡 我覺得 that humans are innately violent, which I thought
- 這很有趣 - 嗯 - was really interesting. - Mm-hmm.
她說她認為暴力事件 Um, and she said she thinks the violence
- 發生在很久以前 - 嗯 - took place a long time ago. - Mm-hmm.
只是被傳下來了 And has just been passed down.
- 傳承 - 對 - Passed down? - Yeah.
- 她確實說過 - 然後她說 - She did speak about it. - And then she said that, um,
暴力是遺傳基因裏自帶的 it's in people's genetic makeup.
但我們有能力... But we have the power...
- 她就是這個想法 - 操控這種原始衝動 - There you go. - to override that.
- 對 - 我當時 - Yeah. - Which I was like...
- 嗯 - 整個人都震驚了 - Yeah. - wow!
我想 「你是看了那位的著作」 I'm like, "What PDFs are you reading?"
搞什麼 What?
是的 你能相信 Yeah, can you believe...
我的恐懼可能是弧獨 So my fears would be like loneliness
人們會不理解你 and like people not understanding you
儘管他們會來試圖理解你 even though, they're there to understand you
諸如此類的 and stuff like that.
這真的很可怕 It's just really scary,
因為感覺自己弧身一人 'cause it feels like you have nobody.
好了 我給你們上一課 All right, listen, it's lesson time.
「首先 作為成年人」 "So first, as the adult,"
「要花時間去克服悲傷 瘋狂」 "take time for the sad, mad,"
「或恐懼的感覺」 "or scared feelings to work their way through."
「如何做到這一點取決於你的個性」 "How this happens will depend on your personality."
「平靜地請你的孩子聽你說完」 "Calmly invite your child to hear you out."
「可以一試 嘿 我犯了個錯誤」 "You can try, 'Hey, I made a mistake"
「我想和你談談這個問題」 "'and I would like to talk to you about that."
「我可以進來嗎」 "'May I come in?'"
可以 Sure.
「試著...」 "Try to..."
「試試比如」 "Try... Try something like,"
「我要送你回家的時候 你覺得難過嗎」 "'Did you feel hurt that I was gonna send you home?'"
嗯 很難過 Yeah, I did.
好 Yeah.
然後我得說... Uh, then I say...
「我對自己的行為感到很抱歉」 "I feel badly about how I behaved."
「你在生我的氣嗎」 "Are you feeling mad at me?"
「氣的話也沒關係」 "It's okay if you are"
「我想聽聽你的感受和想法」 "and I'd like to hear whatever you're feeling and thinking."
嗯... Mmm...
我還以為你是個討厭鬼呢 I thought that you were being a pain in the ass.
嗯 Yeah.
然後是「我...」 Then, "I..."
「我感覺非常...」得用一個形容感覺的詞 "I am feeling very..." Use a feeling word.
糟糕 愚蠢 腦子不靈光了 Shitty, stupid, totally out of touch,
還有 難過 and also, um, sad.
對不起 我不應該送你走的 Sorry, I shouldn't.
「然後 看著你孩子的眼睛」 "Then, from the bottom of your heart,"
「用心說出對不起」 "look your child in the eye and say you're sorry."
噢 拜託 Oh, come on.
說啊 Say it.
對不起 I'm sorry.
我也很抱歉 I'm sorry, too.
都是你媽媽做的嗎 Your mom does all this?
嗯 但是她不用從一個 Yeah, but she doesn't have to read it
破手機上看 from a stupid phone.
好了 別看手機了 Now, no more phone time for you.
好 不看屏幕了 No more... No more screen time.
我能和你睡嗎 Can I sleep with you?
- 什麼 - 我能和你睡一起嗎 - Hmm? - Can I sleep with you?
可以啊 Yeah. Hmm.
我能成為孤兒嗎 Can I be an orphan?
你沒事吧 You okay?
我只想當個孤兒 I just want to be the orphan.
好 Okay.
你想問問我過去的事情嗎 Is there anything about my past you'd like to ask me?
你媽媽是什麼樣的人 What was your mom like?
她是個很好的人 She was nice.
嗯 Hmm, yeah.
你還記得她嗎 Do you remember her?
記得 Yeah.
她總是在泡澡 She always took baths,
但她好像從來沒機會泡澡 but she'd have like she never got to take 'em,
但她總是會泡澡 but she always took them.
她下班回家後 就把廚房打掃得 When she'd get home from work, she cleaned up the kitchen,
乾乾淨淨 all bangy and loud.
我會問「你為什麼這麼大聲」 Then I'd say, "Why are you being so loud?
「你是生氣了嗎」 "Are you mad?"
然後她會回「我沒有很大聲」 Then she'd say, "I'm not being loud."
她會寫書 虛構的或者是真人真事 She wrote books, fiction and non-fiction.
♪ When you skip-to-my-lou ♪
♪ My darlin' ♪
她總是會唱她小時候的老歌 She's always singing old songs from when she was a kid.
♪ I'm gonna get ya ♪
♪ I bet you a bottom dollar You were best under pressure ♪
♪ Yo, Sandy You were best under pressure ♪
♪ Get your, get your lips wet 'Cause it's time to have Pep ♪
♪ On yourmark, get set, go Let me go, let me shoop ♪
在那個地方 你得... And in that place, you have...
她會想到很多奇怪的事情 比如鬼魂 She thought about weird things, like ghosts
化身 之類的事情 and incarnation, all that stuff.
她喜歡這裏 She'd loved it here.
她會教課 She taught her classes.
當她壓力太大的時候 When she was stressed out,
她就會給自己做一大塊牛排 she would just cook herself a big steak
然後全吃掉 and just eat it.
她喜歡和朋友們一起玩 She loved hanging out with her friends.
她說即使我們彼此相愛 She says even though we love each other,
她也永遠不會瞭解我的一切 she'll never know everything about me
我也永遠不會瞭解她的一切 and I'll never know everything about her.
人生就是這樣 It's just the way it is.
住手啦 Stop.
- 呃 - 你好奇怪 - Um... - You're weird.
好了 他想看多久手機 Okay, yeah. Time to screen time as much
- 你就讓他看多久 - 好 - screen time as he wants. - Okay.
他想看什麼就看什麼 He can watch anything he wants.
他想看多久就看多久 你看 你看 給你看 All the screen time he wants. Here, here, here, here.
只要不是少兒不宜的都可以 R-rated, anything, anything he wants.
看吧 放肆看 You know, here's your screen time.
- 嗯 給他吧 - 可以玩手機了 - Yeah, give it to him. - Here's your screen time.
你得確保自己眼皮別打架 You have to mak sure your eyelids stay open.
好好珍惜無限手機時間 Get as much screen time as possible.
如果他哭了什麼的 就把手機收走 好嗎 If he cries or anything, no screen time, all right?
- 好 - 嗯 - All right. - Yeah.
好了 你現在可以玩手機了 Okay, that was it, that was your screen time.
- 謝謝 - 嗯 - Nice. - Yeah.
幸福嗎 Do you feel screenful?
超幸福 I feel screenful.
- 是吧 - 賊幸福 - Yeah. - Screenish.
你覺得成年人能理解 So do you feel like adults understand
孩子們的感受嗎 what kids are going through?
我想很多媽媽可以 Um, I definitely think lots of moms do,
因為... 我就是覺得會 because... I think they do.
我很好奇 你說過這裏 I'm curious, like, you said this was
是卡特里娜颶風中受災最嚴重的地區之 one of the hardest hit areas of Katrina,
你聽說過那些風災的故事呢 like, what are the stories you've heard?
有個人死在這房子裏 Um, a guy died in this house,
但我相信鬼魂是善良的 but I like to believe that ghosts are nice
他們不會嚇唬人 and they don't try to scare people,
除非他們是有目的的 unless that's their intention.
跟我說說你... Tell me about that, uh,
手臂上的紋身吧 tattoo you've got on your arm.
- 沒什麼 - 噢 - It is nothing. - Oh!
他的是我...到目前為止 his is what I... I've learned
對德文特的瞭解 about Devante so far.
德文特說「我的事就是我的事」 Devante is like, "My business is mine.
「那是什麼」 "What's about that?"
「我現在不想談這個」 "I don't feel like talking about that right now."
「什麼紋身」 "What's the tattoo?"
你知道的 就是這種事 You know, this kinda thing.
你知道 我欣賞你那一點嗎 So, uh, you know, what I appreciate about you?
我很欣賞你... I appreciate the fact that you, um...
你把這個看作是神聖的東西 對吧 You hold what is sacred, right?
你覺得你死後會發生什麼 So what do you think happens to you after you die?
我和我媽媽都是浸信會教徒 Well, me and my mom are Baptists.
我覺得會上天堂 Uh, well, I would say heaven, I feel.
我不知道那會是什麼樣子 I don't know how it would be like,
但我想像的是 有草甸 but what I imagine it, uh, I would say a meadow
一棵大樹下 with a one big tree,
躺在鋪滿鮮花的草地上 and you just lay on the grass with flowers
抬頭看著陽光 and you just stare up into the sun
微風徐徐 with a lot of breeze, obviously.
不會太熱 You don't want it to be too hot.
是啊 我也是這麼想的 Yeah, that's what I kind of imagine.
很美好 That's really beautiful.
你認為世界是公平的嗎 Do you think that the world is fair?
不 沒有什麼是真正公平的 No, nothing's really that fair.
可能還會有 There's always gonna be, uh,
更多的戰爭 like, probably gonna be more war,
因為如果你繼續在過去的基礎上 since there's more things to fight about
繼續努力 就會有更多的事情要抗爭 if you keep on building onto what's in the past.
是什麼導致你內心氾濫 What causes flooding within yourself,
是你的思想 within whether it's in your mind,
你的內心 還是你的精神 within your heart, within your spirit?
是什麼導致了你內心的崩潰 What causes flooding, um, within you?
我覺得 不是那種 Um, I think it would be, like,
感覺 not, like, feeling that,
就像我說的 沒人在乎我或者 like I said no one cares or, like, just feeling that
只是感覺 有時候我很弧單 I'm, like, alone sometimes.
但我知道很多孩子都在說 But I know a lot of kids are saying,
「噢 世界要完了」之類的 "Oh, the world's gonna end and all that."
我不覺得世界會毀滅 I don't think the world's gonna end.
我只是覺得這個世界沒有像以前 I just think the world's not gonna be as clean
那麼乾淨了 as it used to be.
假設你的父母是你的孩子... Say if your parents were your children...
你想讓他們學到什麼 What's something you would want them to learn?
你會教他們什麼 What's something you would teach 'em?
不要自私 不要學壞 不要... Not to be selfish, not to be bad, and not to...
不要不尊重人 不要... And not to disrespect, and not to have...
和你們的朋友 And to have close feelings
和父母保持親密的感情 for your friends, your parents,
而不是... and not to be...
如果我可以領導他們的話 if I were the one to be a lead.
如果你能改孌自己的一件事 If you could change one thing about yourself,
你會想改孌什麼 what would it be?
我的態度 My attitude.
嘿 你的態度有什麼問題 Hey, what's wrong with your attitude?
你看起來態度很好啊 You seem like you have a great attitude.
你會如何改孌自己 What would you change about yourself?
我的脾氣 My anger.
「在那裏 顏色 感覺和聲音」 "There, colors, sensations, and sounds"
「會不斷地沖刷著你」 "will wash over you constantly."
「你會看到很多生物」 "You will see so many living things."
- 嘿 - 嘿 有什麼事嗎 - Hey. - Hey, what's up?
「無法想像」 "Beyond imagining..."
怎麼樣了 How's it going?
-「感覺和聲音...」 - 謝謝 - "Sensations and sounds..." - Thank you.
「會不斷地沖刷你」 "will wash over you constantly."
- 沒問題 - 沒事吧 - No problem. - Hey. You're good?
- 沒事 - 對不起 - Yeah. - I'm sorry.
- 沒事 - 怎麼了 - Yeah. - What happened?
沒事 No. It's okay.
他就是...哭了一會兒 He just... There were some tears...
- 為什麼 - 我們的零食吃完了 - Why? - we ran out of snacks,
平板也沒電了 壞事全撞一塊兒了 the iPad died, it was like thing after thing.
我們只剩下葡萄乾了 We only have raisins left.
- 真糟 - 我們不喜歡葡萄乾 - Shit. - We don't like raisins.
我沒計劃好 我很抱歉 I didn't plan well, I'm so sorry.
不要說粗話 No, don't cuss.
嘿 抱歉 Hey, sorry.
- 沒關係的 - 你還好吧 - It's fine. - You all right?
我去找莫里斯 Yeah, I'm gonna go find Maurice.
- 好 - 我馬上回來 - Okay. - And I'll be back.
謝謝 費恩 Thanks, Fern.
嘿 Hey.
- 嘿 - 沒事吧 - Hey. - You okay?
就是不好意思 I'm embarrassed.
- 不好意思是嗎 - 因為我哭了 - You're embarrassed? - That I cried.
你哭了覺得不好意思 You're embarrassed that you cried,
不要不好意思 don't be embarrassed.
因為我通常不會哭這麼兇 Because I don't usually cry that much.
我通常不會哭這麼兇 I don't usually cry that much.
沒關係 It's okay.
沒關係的 It's all right.
你生我氣了嗎 You mad at me?
沒有 Mmm-mmm.
你能給我讀完那本書嗎 Can you finish that book?
- 好 - 拜託了 - Yeah. - Please.
「要訪問地球」 "To visit planet Earth,"
「你必須以人類兒童的身份出生」 "you will have to be born as a human child."
「首先 你必須學會」 "At first, you'll have to learn"
「使用你的新身體」 "to use your new body,"
「移動你的胳膊和腿 把自己直立起來」 "to move your arms and legs, to pull yourself upright."
「你將學會走路和跑步」 "You will learn to walk and run, to use your hands"
「學會用手發聲和說話」 "to make sounds and form words."
「慢慢地 你會學會照顧自己的」 "Slowly, you will learn to take care of yourself."
「在這裏 一切都是平靜的」 "Here, it is still and peaceful,"
「但在那裏 顏色 感覺」 "but there, the colors, sensations,"
「和聲音 會不斷沖刷你」 "and sounds will wash over you constantly."
「你會看到很多生物」 "You will see so many living things,"
「植物和動物 超乎想像」 "plants and animals, beyond imagining."
「在這裏 一切都是一樣的」 "Here, it is always the same,"
「但在那裏 一切都在運動」 "but there, everything is in motion,"
「一切都在不斷變化」 "everything is always changing."
「你將被投入地球的時間之河」 "You will be plunged into Earth's river of time."
「你會有很多東西要學習」 "There will be so much for you to learn"
「有很多東西要感受」 "and so much for you to feel,"
「快樂和恐懼 幸福和失望」 "pleasure and fear, joy and disappointment,"
「悲傷和驚奇」 "sadness and wonder."
「在你的混亂和歡樂中」 "In your confusion and delight,"
「你會忘記你從那裏來」 "you will forget where you came from."
「你會成長 旅行 工作」 "You will grow up, travel, and work."
「也許 你會有孩子」 "Perhaps, you'll have children,"
「甚至你自己的孫輩」 "even grandchildren of your own."
「多年來 你會努力去理解」 "Over the years, you will try to make sense"
「你所處的快樂 悲傷 充實 空虛」 "of that happy, sad, full, empty,"
「和不斷變化的生活」 "always-shifting life you're in."
「當回到你的星球的時候」 "And when the time comes to return to your star,"
「你可能很難和那個」 "it may be hard to say 'goodbye'"
「奇異美麗的世界說再見」 "to that strangely beautiful world."
該死的這本書 Damn this book.
- 你在哭 - 不 我沒有 - You're crying. - No, I'm not.
你就是哭了 Yes, you are.
你肯定哭了... 看 你哭了... You're definitely cry... See, you're cry...
不 這只是...很有道理 No, it's just... It's true.
我們忘記了出生的一切 We forget everything.
不 我沒有忘 你忘了 畢竟你蠢 No, I don't, you do. You're stupid.
是啊 你幾乎不記得了 Yeah, you'll barely remember this.
你會對那趟旅途還會有一些 You'll have, like, a few blurry memories
模糊的記憶 of this whole trip.
那...那太蠢了 That's... That's very stupid.
你就是最蠢的人 You're just the stupidest stupid person.
世界之最 而且 你的大腦容量 Ever. And, like, you have the lesser brain capacity
比一個死掉的人還小 than an actual deceased dead person.
所以 吃牛排這件事 So eating steaks,
我知道這個 I know this and...
- 噢 - 你以前總跟媽媽 - Oh! - You used to give mom
說這事 so much shit about that.
是啊 我老說 I did, didn't I?
真他媽不敢相信 I can't fucking believe it.
我也是啊 天吶 那個小混蛋 Yes, I am. God, that little shit
真該學學怎麼保守秘密 needs to learn how to keep secrets.
你怎麼還沒睡 Why are you still up?
好問題 我太累了 但睡不著 Good question. I'm so exhausted I can't sleep.
我就是...我要告訴你一件 I just... I'm gonna tell you something
作為一個母親你無法理解的事 that as a mother you won't be able to understand,
但你得相信我 but you're gonna have to trust me.
一邊照顧他 又要工作 真是... Taking care of him and working at the same time is...
- 是啊 - 太難了 - Yeah. - a little too much.
太耗精力了 It just takes a lot out of you.
明天 我要帶他去參加孫尼 So tomorrow, I'm gonna take him to a parade
跟我說過的遊行 that Sunni told me about.
你做得很好 You're doing so good.
是啊 他一直這麼配合 Yeah, he's been such a trouper,
我覺得我欠他一段好時光 I feel like I owe him a good time.
儘管他 一直問我 Even though, he, um, keeps asking me
為什麼我們不說話了 why we don't talk.
噢 Oh!
不錯啊 我喜歡這孩子 Cool. I like this kid.
那你怎麼說呢 And what do you say?
就說了點糊弄過去唄 Apparently, some bullshit.
他沒讓你得逞吧 He didn't let you get away with that, did he?
沒 No.
我不知道該怎麼辦了 I just don't know what to do anymore.
我可能沒有話能糊弄他了 I'll probably run out of bullshit I guess.
你可以告訴他真相 Well, you could tell him the truth.
那聽起來很有趣 That sounds fun.
告訴你九歲的孩子真相什麼 Just tell your 9-year-old the truth. What...
說那部分真相 Which... Which part?
那個 我... That I...
搞砸了你和保羅的關係 讓我捲入了 messed up with you and Paul, that I got in the middle
不明白的事情中 of something I didn't understand?
這部分嗎 That part?
嗯 這部分不錯 Oh, yeah, that's good.
用這個開頭不錯 That's... That's a really good start.
還是媽媽死後 我們... Or was it when Mom died, we got in...
媽媽死後那些奇怪的事 into all that weird shit when Mom died.
這部分呢 That part?
你是說 就像我們一生中 You mean, like all that weird shit
那些奇怪的事 這些東西嗎 of our entire lives? That stuff?
對 我們的一生 Yeah, our entire lives.
還是路易莎離開我的時候 Or was it when Louisa left me
一切都糟得不行 and everything just exploded.
這是你第一次這麼說 You know, that's the first time you've said that.
這部分嗎 Yeah, which part?
所有這些 All of it.
約翰尼 Johnny.
約翰尼 約翰尼 約翰尼 Johnny. Johnny, Johnny!
約翰尼 Johnny.
我沒事 I'm okay.
- 你還好嗎 - 你沒事吧 - You okay? - Are you all right?
- 我沒事 - 約翰尼 - Uh, I'm okay. - Johnny.
- 我沒事 - 別起來 約翰尼 - I'm okay. - Stop, Johnny!
約翰尼 Johnny!
慢點起 慢點 Take it slow. Take it slow.
- 我沒事 沒事的 - 好 - It's okay, it's okay. - Okay.
沒事的 It's okay.
我摔傷你了嗎 Did I drop you?
我自己跳下來的 I jumped.
身手不錯 Okay, good move.
我不知道怎麼回事 I don't know what that was.
你暈倒了 You fainted.
什麼 What?
好吧 我暈倒了 Okay, I fainted.
也許我們還是別跟別人說了 Uh, maybe we shouldn't talk about it with anyone,
困為太尷尬了 'cause it's embarrassing.
這不是尷尬 It's not embarrassing!
你一定被嚇到了吧 That must have been scary for you.
沒有 Nah-uh.
真的嗎 No, really?
我沒事 I was fine.
我覺得我有事 I don't think I was fine
我也不認為你沒事 and I don't think you were fine.
我們有一個舒適區 We have a zone of resiliency.
當我們離開這個區域 我們就可以冥想 When we're out of the zone, we can meditate.
想一些能給你帶來快樂的事情 Just think of something that can bring you joy.
當你感到壓力過大的時候 When you're stressed out,
你可以用一些技丐 you can use some of these techniques.
按摩一下肩膀 扔扔石頭分散一下注意力 Shoulder-tapping, rock-tossing.
數數手指什麼的 Finger-touching.
或者把注意力放在呼吸上 Or mindful breathing.
或者 你也可以把壓力甩掉... And, or you can just shake it off...
好啊 Yeah.
很不錯 That's amazing.
謝謝你 Thank you.
你覺得我們像嗎 Do you think we're alike?
才不像 God, no.
我們可像了 Yeah, we are.
- 我們像 - 不 我們不像 - We are, we are. - No, we are not.
一點都不像 No, we are not.
- 像的 - 不像 - Yeah, we are. - No, we're not.
不像的 No, we are not!
- 我倒是希望我們像 - 我才會像你那樣暈倒 - Well, I wanna be. - I don't faint like you do.
不會 No.
但我知道很多孩子都在說 But I know a lot of kids are saying,
「噢 世界要完了」之類的 "Oh, the world's gonna end" and all that.
我不覺得世界會毀滅 I don't think the world's gonna end.
我只是覺得這個世界沒有像以前那麼乾淨了 I just think the world's not gonna be as clean
沒那麼容易走動 沒那麼容易呼吸 or as easy to get around or easy to breathe
沒那麼容易生活了 or easy stuff like that.
好的 非常感謝 Yeah. Thank you so much.
這真的很有趣 This was really fun.
你有沒有想過未來 Have you ever thought about the future?
噢 Oh...
你有沒有想過未來 Have you ever thought about the future?
當然了 Uh, yeah.
無論你的計劃是什麼 Uh, whatever you plan on happening,
都趕不上孌化 never happens.
只會有很多意料之外的事情接踵而來 Stuff you would never think of happens.
所以你只能 你必須努力 So you just have to... you have to come on,
努力 努力 努力 come on, come on, come on, come on,
努力 努力 繼續努力 come on, come on, come on,
不斷努力 不停努力 come on, come on, come on, come on.
他睡著了 Uh, so he slept.
他連著睡了兩晚 He slept for two whole nights
藥也起作朋了 and he's responding to his meds,
所以醫生說他可以接受治療了 so the doctor said he can do outpatient care.
他剛告訴我他可以回家了 He just told me he can go home.
- 他說了嗎 - 嗯 - He did? - Yeah.
哇 呃 Wow. Um...
你怎麼樣 你還好吧 And how are you? You doin' all right?
說不准 還不錯吧 I don't know. Yeah, just fine.
你想現在告訴傑西嗎 Um, you wanna tell Jesse now?
好 Yeah.
約翰尼 真的謝謝你 Johnny, thank you so much.
沒事 Okay.
傑西 是你媽媽的電話 Jesse, it's your mom.
喂 Hello.
嗨 親愛的 你好嗎 Hi, sweetie, how are you?
- 挺好 - 那就好 - I'm good. - Oh, good.
聽著 你爸爸好多了 So listen, your dad's doing so much better.
醫生會繼續治療他 The doctors are gonna keep helping him,
但他們認為他已經康復了 可以回家了 but they thought he was well enough to go home.
我會來接你的 好嗎 So I'm gonna come get you, okay?
我先送摩西回家 I'm just driving Moses home
然後明天搭第一班飛機回來 and then I'm gonna be on the first flight out tomorrow.
我好激動 我等不及要見你了 Oh, I'm so excited, I can't wait to see you.
好 Yep.
- 傑西 - 把電話拿走 - Jesse? - Oh, take the phone,
拿走 你來接 take the phone, take the phone!
傑西 親愛的 你還在嗎 Jesse. Sweetie, are you there?
傑西 Jesse?
你不用一直跟著我 You don't have to follow me everywhere.
拜託 孩子 Come on, man.
我沒事 I'm fine.
是嗎 Oh, yeah?
你有事也沒關係的 You can be not fine.
但我真沒事 But I'm fine.
好吧 你知道 當你不在你的區域內的時候 Okay, you know, when you're not in your zone,
你說的 舒適區 like, your zone of resiliency, it's...
心情不好也沒類系的 知道嗎 It's okay to not be fine, you know?
就像 你可以 Like, you can be
生氣...悲傷 you know, angry, and... And sad,
迷茫 困惑 and... And lost, and confused,
這些都沒關係 and that's okay.
但我真的沒事 But I'm fine!
好吧 但如果你不爽 Okay, but if you're ever not fine,
你可以踢兩腳 你可以發脾氣 you can kick the air, you can throw a fit,
你可以大吼大叫 you can yell,
- 都沒關係 - 我沒事 - and it would be okay. - I'm fine!
你這樣反應是沒問題的 It'd be a totally reasonable response!
沒人會怪你的 It'd be reasonable!
- 你有事 - 我沒事 - You're not fine. - I'm fine!
好吧 我有事 Yeah, I'm not fine!
我沒事 I'm fine!
我很不好 我也有理由不好 I'm not fine and that's a totally reasonable response!
來吧 孩子 Come on, man.
很好 Yeah.
- 我不好 - 這就對了 - I'm not fine! - Yeah.
我有理由可以不好 And that is a totally reasonable response!
對 糟糕透了 但沒有問題 Yeah. This is fucked up and that makes sense!
糟糕透了 但沒有問題 This is fucked up and that makes sense!
這麼糟糕的事怎麼會沒問題 How could this being so fucked up make sense?
因為糟糕透了 It's fucked!
沒錯 Yeah.
你是在笑還是在哭 我看不...我看不出 Are you laughing or crying? I can't... I can't tell.
我想要有適當的反應 I wanna have the appropriate reaction.
嘿 孩子 過來 Hey, man, come here.
讓我...讓我看看你 Let me... Let me look at you.
- 嗯 - 你是在笑嗎 - Mm. - Are you laughing?
你臉上是微笑嗎 Is that a smile?
是你的傻笑嗎 Is that your big stupid smile?
- 你還好嗎 - 嗯 - Are you all right? - Yeah.
那就好 All right.
你還會暈倒嗎 Are you gonna faint?
不會 No.
我已經試過你說的方法了 捏捏肩 放鬆放鬆 I got my shoulder-touching, finger-tapping,
分散注意力 rock-throwing.
話說 你為什麼要扔石頭 Why are you throwing rocks, by the way?
你覺得我長大後會像我爸一樣嗎 Do you think I'm gonna be like my dad when I'm older?
我覺得你會更好 傑西 I think you have it better, Jesse.
為什麼 Why?
因為你就是...我不知道 'Cause you are just... I don't know.
你更加瞭解自己 You know yourself more,
你能夠表達自己 you're able to like express yourself
和自己的感受 這是你媽媽教給你的 and your feeling, that's what your mom taught you.
所以你已經遙遙領先了 相信我 So you are way ahead of the game, believe me.
說明你比他好多了 Means you're looking better.
一堆廢話 Lots of blah, blah, blah.
搞笑點 逗號 如果可以的話 句號 Be funny, comma, when you can, period.
什麼意思 What's that?
我爸爸以前也這麼跟我說過 My dad used to say that to me.
- 真的 - 嗯 - Really? - Yeah.
很有趣 That's funny.
嗨 Hi!
媽媽 Mama!
- 嗨 - 嗨 - Hi. - Hi.
- 嗨 - 你好啊 - Hi. - Hi, hi, hi.
- 嗨 - 噢 - Hi. - Oh.
嘿 嘿 Hey. Hey.
二 三... two, three...
- 再見了 - 再見 - Bye, you guys. - Bye.
所以他每頓飯都需要大量的蛋自質 So he needs a lot of protein with every meal
除了週末不准玩手機電腦 and no screen time on the weekdays.
週末 每天一小時 就這些要注意了 Weekends, one hour a day and that's it, all right?
再見 Bye.
我愛你 I love you.
我也愛你 I love you.
你有沒有想過未來 Have you ever thought about the future?
呃 當然 Uh, yeah.
無論你的計劃是什麼 Uh, whatever you plan on happening,
都趕不上孌化 never happens.
只會有很多意料之外的事情接踵而來 Stuff you would never think of happens.
所以你只能...你必須努力 So you just have to... You have to come on,
努力 努力 努力 努力 come on, come on, come on, come on,
不斷努力 不停努力 come on, come on, come on, come on.
約翰尼 約翰尼 約翰尼 約鞠尼 Johnny, Johnny, Johnny, Johnny, Johnny, Johnny.
約翰尼有點奇怪 Johnny is a bit strange.
他真的很有趣 Um, he's really fun.
他總能逗我笑 He makes me laugh.
他摔跤的時候很有趣 He's really funny when he wrestles.
他可能是我最好的朋友 He might be my best friend,
因為他只有只有兩個...兩個... 'cause he only has only has two... two...
他只有兩個朋友 He only has two friends,
但他可能是我最好的朋友 but he might be my best friend.
我不知道 I don't know.
吧啦 吧啦 吧啦 吧啦 Blah, bablah, blah, blah.
我會說 吧啦 吧啦 I would say so blah, blah,
吧啦 吧啦 吧啦 吧啦 blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.
吧啦 吧啦 吧啦 吧啦 Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.
準備好了嗎 You ready?
嘿 傑西 我是莫扎特 Hey, Jesse, this is Mozart,
你熱情又過於情緒化的叔叔 your intense and overly emotional uncle.
我醒來的時候 你在大聲播放瘋狂的歌劇音樂 When I woke up, you were blaring crazy opera music.
我很驚訝你媽媽離開了 I was surprised that your mom had left,
但你似乎並不在意 but you didn't seem bothered about it.
你就只是 You just pretty much...
接受了我 accepted me.
我給你看了我的錄音機 I showed you my recorder,
但你不想接受採訪 but you didn't want to be interviewed.
你錄下了海灘城市的聲音 You recorded the beach, the sounds of the city.
我得回紐約 I had to go back to New York
我要你跟我一起去 and I asked you to come with me,
你說「我很樂意」 and you just said, "I'd love that."
你睡不著 And you couldn't sleep,
你的小嘴就沒停過 and you were just talking a mile a minute,
你有那麼多的事情要說 and you had so many things to say,
說錄音的方法 and what about approaches,
以及要怎麼錄... and how to record...
我永遠都做不到讓你閉嘴 And I could never actually stop you,
我一直在找辦法 最後我希望你能繼續說下去 and then I kept trying, and I wish I wouldn't have.
我想聽聽你們瘋狂的想法 Now I wanna hear all of your crazy thoughts
和酷炫的想法 and cool ideas.
然後我們躺在床上你問... And then we were in bed, you asked...
你之後會記得我 記得這些嗎 Are you gonna remember any of this?
也許吧 Maybe.
今天可是我們超讚的過夜派對 And that's, like, our awesome sleepovers.
你說你不會記得 And you said you won't remember it.
不 我是說「你不會記得的」 No, I said, "You won't remember it."
我會記得的 I'll remember it.
我不會記得嗎 I won't remember?
我說「我希望你能記住」 I said, "I hope you do,"
你很生氣 and you got so upset,
然後我說 and I said,
「我會提醒你的」 "I'll remind you of everything."
你覺得瞭解你的感受容易嗎 Do you think it's easy to understand your feelings?
比如 有沒有能...瞭解你感覺的... Like, do you have access to... To what you feel or...
我唯一能做的就是 Hmm, the only thing that I do have
我知道我很安全 is that I know that I'm safe.
- 那很不錯 - 嗯 - That's beautiful. - Hmm.
什麼...讓你感到安全 Uh, what... What makes you feel safe?
在一個大家都關心我的家裏 I'm in a home where people care about me.
還有關心我的朋友 - Mm-hmm. - And I have friends
that care about me
這樣之類的關心 and everything like that.
我肯定會 Um, I would definitely
在撫養我未來的孩子的時候 take a lot of what my parents did
參考我父母做過的很多事情 into account of how I parent my future children.
我會告訴孩子們他們想要什麼 I would talk to them about what they want,
他們覺得什麼才是對他們最好的 and, like, what they feel would be the best for them,
然後讓他們知道可以表達自己的想法 and make it known, like they could talk,
但我不會強迫他們 but I wouldn't force them.
我不會說「嘿你知道的」 I wouldn't be like, "Hey, just so you know"
「我們聊天談心的」 "we can talk all the time,"
因為有時父母會這麼做 'cause sometimes parents do that.
這很煩人 And it gets annoying
他們會... and they'll be like...
有時候和別人說話 It's sort of scary, uh,
是有點可怕的 to talk to other people sometimes.
- 嗯 - 因為我個人覺得 - Mm-hmm. - Because, um, uh, personally,
你永遠不知道對方接下來會說什麼 I feel like you never know what they're gonna say next.
- 所以... - 是嗎 - So... - right?
在你心裏... 如果你有... In your... If you had this...
超能力 你會做什麼 this superpower, what'd you do?
會是什麼能力呢 What would it be?
我不知道 我覺得 I don't know. I don't think
我是不會用超能力的 I would ever, like, use a superpower.
我想我只會做自己 I think I would just be me.
- 我就是我的超能力 - 這樣啊 - Like, me is my superpower. - Yeah.
我用我的能力來幫助別人 用... And like I use it to help people and use it in ways that's...
用前所未有的方式去改善 that have never been done before.
對 Yeah.
那真高尚 That's super.
那你呢 朗頓 What about you, London?
你經歷過的最糟糕的事情是什麼 What's the worst thing that's ever happened to you?
呃 可能是 Uh, it would probably be either the fact that
因為我的性格不好 I can I have a nasty personality
會和我的兄弟姐妹發生衝突 that clashes with my siblings or the fact that
或者是因為我長大後 I might have to have surgery
可能要做這顆牙的手術 when I'm older on this one tooth
- 因為... - 嗯 - 'cause it's like... - Well,
也許人類已經滅絕了 uh, maybe humanity ends,
人類不再存在於地球上了 just humans cease to exist on this earth.
我的意思是... I mean, uh...
我不知道 I don't really know
這是好事還是壞事 if that's a good thing or a bad thing.
我是說 我希望... Uh, I mean, if we're...
是啊 我希望 Yeah, like I want
大家對彼此友善 everybody to be kind to each other and
我不知道 就是別對任何人有傷害 I don't know, like, any harm
任何憤怒 就為什麼呢 or any anger towards anybody. Like, why? Why?
不會 比起生某人的氣 Wouldn't... Wouldn't you rather be happy
你難道不會想開心嗎 than angry at someone?
為什麼要做這些事情 And why do those things
你明明可以快樂 when you can just come together...
那麼... 給我描述一下成年人 So... What... Describe adults for me.
你認為成年人是什麼樣的 Like, what do you think an adult is?
成年人的話 It's... An adult, mm...
所有成年人要做的就是賺錢 All adults have to do is get money
還學生貸款 就這樣 and have to pay student loans. Got 'em.
我很興奮 I think that I get excited
因為我知道我能做點什麼能讓世界 'cause I know that I can do something to make the world,
世界變得更美好 但我也覺得 the world a better place and I also think that
這個想法很可怕 因為我才十四歲 it's kinda devastating, because, like, I'm 14,
我為什麼要擔心世界的樣子 why should I be worried about the way the world looks,
或者 我能不能 or like, I should be able to...
你有沒有想過 Do you ever think about
你死後會發生什麼 what happens after you die?
儘管 科學的說法是 Even though, like, the scientific thing to say
我們不會再繼續思考 is that we don't think at all,
我們的身體會開始消亡 our bodies decompose
即使沒有我們 地球也會繼續轉 and, uh, like, life continues on without us.
但為什麼我們生下來 終點就是死亡呢 But why would we be made to just die?
可能... There's probably that...
可能沒有原因 There's probably not a reason
但這背後可能也有原因 but there might be a reason behind it.
總能解釋的 我不知道 我不清楚 Somehow, I don't know, I'm not sure.
孩子們傾向於天馬行空 Kids tend to think freely.
成年人思考的時候 就會在一個狹小的空間內思考 Adults when they think, they think in a tight space.
- 你明白我的意思吧... - 我想 - You get what I'm saying... - I think...
很難回答 我大概想要 it's hard. I think it's probably a cross
讀心術和飛行結合的能力 between mind reading and flying.
讀心術是因為 如果一個人很悲傷 Mind reading because if someone's sad,
他們通常不會告訴你發生了什麼 they usually won't tell you what's going on.
我有點... And I'm a little bit of a...
那種人有點... that kind of person that is a little...
顯然 有科學研究 Apparently, scientific studies,
我並不是說這是完全正確的 I'm not saying this is completely true or whatever,
我就是聽到過有這種說法 it's just what I've heard,
就是 人的大腦 but, uh, your brain
必須去除一些舊的東西 has to knock out some old memories
才能保存新的記憶 to be able to save new ones.
所以我認為美國有兩種人 So I feel like there's two types of Americans, like,
一種人可以不斷地得到他們想要的東西 people who can constantly get what they want
得到他們需要的東西 and have what they need,
另一種人 and then there's the other type
需要努力奮鬥 where they kind of have to struggle
和努力工作來得到他們想要的東西 and work harder for the things that they need.
不是我們的外表 It's not the way we look,
而是我們的內心 but it's, like, how we are on the inside that's...
就像你不能「以貌取書」一樣 Just like you can't judge a book by its cover,
人也是如此 不能以貌取人 it's the same with humans.
所以我喜歡看到事物積極的一面 So I like to look at the positive side of things.
我喜歡思考那些 Um, I like to think about,
可能真的有助於 um, like new inventions that might
拯救世界的新發明 actually help save the world.
我想去太空 發現一顆新的行星 I think about going into space and discovering a new planet
然後在那裏建立生命 and then maybe like building a life there.
關於你的父母 What do you hope that you really remember
你希望自己能一直記得的是什麼 about your mom and your dad?
他們會一直支持我 That they were always there for me,
他們會一直愛我 他們說... that they always love me. They say...
我每天晚上 I tell her
都跟她說「晚安」 然後... "good night" every night and...
我總是會突然跟她說「我愛她」 I always tell her that "I love her,"
她也會經常這麼做 just like out of the blue and she would do the same.
我真的感覺 And I really feel
我和她之間的強烈感情 that strong connection with her.
如果你能擁有任何超能力 If you could have any superpower,
你想擁有什麼能力 what would it be?
能扭曲時空的能力 The ability to bend space and time.
如果你認為自己是個好人 If you were what you believe is a good person
你去問你信任的人 and you ask whoever you believe in,
「嘿 我能轉世嗎」 "Hey, can I be reincarnated"
「變成老虎之類的」 "into, I don't know, like a tiger?"
如果你是個好人 他們就會說 And you were a good person then they would be like,
「可以的 你可以投胎變成老虎的 去吧」 "Yeah, you can be a tiger, go ahead."
我覺得如果我們死了 Well, I feel like if we die,
我們什麼都感覺不到 like, we don't really feel anything,
所有的記憶都會消失 all like memories are gone and stuff.
然後我們等著 And we're just like, we'll just see you wait
等著重新變成嬰兒 becoming a baby.
就這樣 And, yeah,
再出生 然後重新開始一段人生 getting born and then just restarting life.
我也不確定 因為我從來沒死過 Like, I'm not sure 'cause I've never been dead before.
坐下來 Sit down
閉上眼睛 and close your eyes,
試著去發現自己 and try to find yourself.
因為我覺得必須這樣做 Because I feel like that's what you really have to do,
這樣才能知道自己想要什麼 to know what you want.
找到一種很舒服的方式 去瞭解探索自己 Like, find a way that you feel comfortable finding yourself.
懂嗎 一定得瞭解自己 You know, you gotta find to find.